Join me on the 30 Day Self❤Love Challenge!

The Journey to Self Love…

Imagine growing up never receiving any hugs or kisses, or being told “I love you”.

You never saw your parents display any love or affection towards each other.

As a young child, the lack of love within your home may have caused you to supress your true emotions, to lack the ability to give or receive love in a healthy manner, and to develop a healthy relationship with your Self.

As you grow up, you may seek love outside of the home in the form of promiscuity, gang life, drug dependency, or other self-harming ways.

You may have even been raised in a religious environment that spoke of God’s unconditional Love, yet still, you failed to experience this kind of love from your parents, because they themselves didn’t experience it.

You don’t realize that the root cause of your issues as an adult is a Self Love Deficit.  You weren’t taught how to love yourself, let alone how to love others.

You were taught to put others first, to put God first, and to put your own needs last.  So slowly, your cup became empty as you poured into other people’s lives, without giving to yourself.

If (like myself) you can identify with the above story, the journey to Self Love may be a long and tedious one. You’re going to have to fill your meter from a Self Love Deficit, to filling your Self with Love. Where would you say you are right now on that meter? (I’d say I’m about half way)

True Love is unconditional.

Do you love yourself unconditionally? If not, how can you expect others to?  When you give unconditional love to yourself, it will be reflected back to you.

I wish I’d known this years ago. Instead, I hated myself; I hated my looks, I hated my hair, I hated my skin, I hated my nose, I hated everything about me (apart from my teeth).

But I loved God.

How can I say I loved God when I didn’t love myself?

I wasn’t taught to recognize God within, I was taught to think of God as being outside of myself, somewhere beyond the clouds.

To truly put God first, is to recognize God within. When I say ‘God’, I’m referring to the Source of Love.

Yes, your Source of Love is within.

Come with me on a journey of Self discovery, the Journey to Self Love!

From 1st January 2019 I’ll be starting The 30 Day Self❤Love Challenge, and I’d LOVE you to join me!

To prepare, you will need;

▪A hand mirror
▪A drinking glass
▪Water
▪A notebook/journal/recording device

▪Optional extra: rose quartz crystal

For 30 days, we will perform 3 easy daily tasks, and an end of week Self Love Treat, designed to help fill us up with Love, until we can give of our overflow instead of a Self Love Deficit – if you like, you can get started right away!

1) As soon as you wake up and before you go to sleep, look in your mirror and tell yourself “I LOVE YOU”. Look straight in your eyes; this may feel uncomfortable at first, but the more you do it, the easier it will get.
2) Pour some water in a glass, put your love intention into it and say “I LOVE YOU” into the water to program it before drinking it.  This is based on Dr Emoto’s water experiment, and that we are made up of 70% water. (Click on the link below to The Self❤Love Retreat page to watch a short  video about the effects of words on water)

3) Repeat a Positive Affirmation to your Self each day, such as “I love myself unconditionally” 

We will end each week with a Self Care Treat that will help build Self Love.  Imagine, the more people doing The 30 Day Self❤Love Challenge will not only raise individual frequencies, but will help raise the Love frequency of the whole planet!

BE PART OF THE MOVEMENT!

You can either do The 30 Day Self❤Love Challenge on your own, with your partner, or a group of friends – this is for men too!  Share this page with your friends and family, we’re aiming to have at least 1,000 people ready to start on January 1st!  3 other facilitators will be joining me, each of us facilitating one week. You’ll get a prep video at the beginning of the week, daily emails to coach you on the Journey, downloadable worksheets, and a group call at the end of each week, all for FREE!  (If you want more individual attention, you’ll be able to pay for 1-2-1 coaching with the practitioner for that week).

To take part in The 30 Day Self❤Love Challenge, fill in the box below:

Feel free to share your journey so far, what has led you to this point, and what you hope to achieve from doing The 30 Day Self❤Love Challenge.

Join me on The Self❤Love Retreat (Gambia)

 help you get started on your Journey to Self Love, join me in the Gambia for The Self❤Love Retreat, where we will spend 7 days nurturing our INNER and OUTER Self!  This includes 5 Self-nurturing workshops, a Pamper Day, and a day trip to Senegal to visit the sacred Bantang Tree!  There are still 2 places on the December Retreat, and 3 places on the January RetreatClick here for details and to download the Booking Form.

Let’s heal together!

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NOWLast October I attended an event where I met Caz Mac, who was in the process of setting up the No Ordinary Woman Chat Show YouTube Channel.  She would be interviewing a number of ordinary women doing extraodinary things! I gave her a signed copy of ‘Journey of a Sister‘ to read.  Some time later she contacted me really excited, having just finished reading the book, and invited me for an interview!  We had a good connection because she identified with a lot of what I’d written about.  In this interview I share my inspiration behind writing both books, but it’s mainly focused on the one she read.  The video launched on the No Ordinary Woman Chat Show YouTube Channel last week, and is available to watch NOW! (No Ordinary Woman) 🙂

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From Friday 26th to Monday 29th May, you can download Years 1 to 11 of my Self-help novel ‘Journey of a Sister’ FREE!  Here I am reading a short extract:

If like me you were indoctrinated into a religion, you’ll definitely be able to relate to Year One, whether your’e a woman or man! The constant feelings of condemnation, not knowing what to do with your sexual desires, and living a life far removed from ‘heaven on earth’, which we are supposed to live as children of God. By Year Two, the main character Suzanne had begun the process of un-indoctrinating her Self from belief systems that weren’t serving her!

Join Suzanne on her quest for “the Truth!” about sex before marriage, the creative power of her thoughts, her African ancestry, and the history of the religion she had been indoctrinated into! Embark on your own personal journey of Self-discovery, Self-healing, and discovering True Love!

Download Year One FREE!

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Here I am reading an extract from Year Two:

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FREE e-book downloads this weekend!

I have a special treat for you!!

This weekend, from Friday 26th to Monday 29th May you will be able to download the e-books series of my Self-help novel ‘Journey of a SisterFREE!

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Why am I being so generous?

This is the Revised Edition of my previously published novel ‘Single, Spiritual…AND Sexual!‘  I’ve made many new changes to it, and also added TWO NEW CHAPTERS (Years 12 & 13). I would like as many people as possible to read the Revised Edition and give me feedback on it!  Also, if you enjoy the free reads, I would love for you to get your personally signed LIMITED EDITION copy of the paperback, which features my artwork in full colour! Watch this video explaining my inspiration behind writing the novel:

Take a sneak peak of Year One HERE!

Come back TOMORROW to get the links to download Years One and Two FREE, and to watch me reading extracts! (‘Follow’ this blog to get the links in your inbox)

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Are you an Amazon Prime Member? Borrow the e-book series from their lending library FREE!  (Visit the Books Page for links)

Visit my Art Page to learn about the Colour Therapy incorporated in my paintings!

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The Truth about the Letter (featured in Year One)

In Year One of my Self-help novel ‘Journey of a Sister’ the main character Suzanne wrote a fearless letter to God asking all the questions the church couldn’t answer, and ended it by asking for “the Truth!”

She knew many of her brothers and sisters in Christ wanted to ask these same questions but were too scared for fear of God’s wrath, so she decided to stand in proxy for them.

The letter boldly questioned the Adam and Eve story, which opened the door for religion to make women subservient to men.  It also questioned the whole battle between God and the devil, which we, God’s creation, are supposedly caught in between.  The letter further questioned God’s ‘Jekyll and Hyde’ character; on one hand loving the world so much that He sent His only son as a blood sacrifice for our ‘sins’.  Yet on the other hand, the bible portrays God as this vengeful, jealous figure who had anger management issues.  Not only did He strike people dead with plagues, famine and war whenever he felt like it, He also supported groups of people in raping, plundering and killing others and stealing their land and inheritance.  Suzanne couldn’t relate to this second character, as she had only experienced God as Pure, Unconditional Love.

She asked why, even after praying in the name of Jesus, meditating on His word, and even fasting sometimes, she still had so many needs.  She had hit rock bottom when she wrote the letter, which marked a turning-point in her life.  She desperately wanted to figure out how to get her life to work.

Now, the truth about the letter:

While the letter was brilliantly constructed, it wasn’t something I took any time to sit and think about; it was an inspired letter that was ‘auto-written’, meaning I didn’t have to think about what I was writing, just like my inspired poems ‘Jesus Never Left You’, “Call Me By My Name!” (Jehovah), and “Look to Me!” (God’s reply to Suzanne’s letter which also features in Year One):

Reading the letter, you might wonder why God would inspire such questions.  The truth is, God was simply responding to the questions many of us have been asking in our heads but haven’t verbalized, because we’ve been told ‘not to question the infallible Word of God’ – as if God no longer speaks.

It was only after asking these questions that I began to receive the answers, and learnt ‘the Truth’, which I’m now sharing with you through this Self-help novel.  In fact, I had not intention of ever sharing the letter publicly, but when I started writing Year One, I was led to include the letter.  My response was “Are You sure?”.  I felt as if I was putting my life on the line by sharing it in the book, but surprisingly, many people have said they’ve asked the same questions!

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Start your own journey of Self-discovery, Self-healing, and discovering True Love by reading Year One FREE!

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Visit the Events page for information of Book Signing & Discussion Events where we will discuss the topics raised in my Self-help books!  TOMORROW (Sunday 29th Jan tune into The Beat Radio between 11.30am-1pm where DJ Elayne will be interviewing me about both books!

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The Books Have Finally Arrived! BOGOF!

After a 4 week delay, the paperbacks of my Self-help novel ‘Journey of a Sister‘ have finally arrived!

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They’re now unpacked and ready to get to YOU!  The printers sent me 100 extra copies for the delay, so I’ve decided to pass it forward!

Kwanzaa Offer: Get two books for the price of one!

Kwanzaa is all about sharing the first-fruits of your harvest, so I’m giving away 100 free copies of the book!  Start the journey by previewing Year One FREE!

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Buy one for your Self, and get a FREE one for a friend  for just £9.99 (+ £4.99 p&p) – they make great gifts!

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If you read the First Edition (titled ‘Single, Spiritual…AND Sexual!’), you can now read what happened after the way  it ended, in The Sequel! (only in the paperback).  Also, the Second Edition includes my artwork in full colour, so you can benefit from the COLOUR THERAPY in them while you read!

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If you are on a journey of Self-discovery, this book is for YOU!   (That goes for men too!)

Read what others thought of the book

After writing the First Edition I discovered the root meaning of the word ‘fornication’.  When I was growing up in church, we were led to believe that fornication meant ‘sex before marriage’.  Read what it really means in  Year One FREE! (← click on the link to open PDF)

If you enjoyed the free read, TAKE ADVANTAGE OF MY LIMITED KWANZAA OFFER  and purchase two copies of ‘Journey of a Sister’ for only £9.99 + £4.99 p&p (UK only, if you are outside the UK purchase your book from Lulu)

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Alternatively, pick up your books at these Kwanzaa Events!

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Read my blog post which explains what Kwanzaa is, and join us at two Kwanzaa events  on the 26th and 30th December, where you’ll be able to get the same offer (Buy One Get One FREE), and framed or laminated prints of my art! For addresses visit my Events Page!

Join me on The 30 Day Mind Detox and get my Self-help novel ‘Journey of a Sister’ FREE! (Starts 2nd January 2017)

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Two Days To My BOOK LAUNCH – Join us!

Join us for the re-launch of my revised Self-help novel ‘Journey of a Sister‘ (previously titled ‘Single, Spiritual…AND Sexual!’) and its sister-book ‘How to Get the Ring On Your Finger’

It’s  being held at the newly refurbished Marcus Garvey Library which is situated inside Tottenham Green Leisure Centre, which is just behind the Bernie Grant Arts Centre! (nearest station: Seven Sisters)

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Both books will be available on the day, but we will mainly be discussing ‘How to Get the Ring On Your Finger‘ – if you haven’t read it yet, download the FREE e-book so you can join in the discussion!

Some of the brothers who contributed to it will be on the Panel to answer your questions!

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I revised it to take into consideration some of the comments that were made at previous Book Signing & Discussion Events, such as “Is the ‘White Wedding’ a Black Thing?”  The front cover design was also inspired by something one of the brothers said: ‘the ring is the smallest handcuff ever created by the white man’ (he’s now happily married by the way!).  You can see him making the comment in this short video clip from the Book Launch of the First Edition:

We’re  mainly going to be discussing ‘How to Get the Ring On Your Finger‘ because no-one has yet read the two new chapters I’ve added to my Self-help novel ‘Journey of a Sister‘ (previously titled ‘Single, Spiritual…AND Sexual!).  You can purchase your signed copy on the day for only £9.99, and read it before next month‘s Book Signing & Discussion Event!

Out with the Old, in with the New!

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If you bought the First Edition, bring it with you to get the Second Edition for only £5! You can keep the first one as well  🙂  Read Year One FREE! (click on the link to open PDF)

You can also get a FREE SIGNED PAPERBACK of ‘Journey of a Sister‘ when you sign up for my 30 Day Mind Detox (online course starting in January, see below to link for more details)

WIN Framed and Laminated Prints of my Art! 

I’ve used them to illustrate my novel; hang them on your walls to alleviate symptoms of Seasonal Affective Disorder! (see my Art page for more details).  Some will also be on sale!

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HOW TO GET THERE

The Marcus Garvey Library is situated inside Tottenham Green Leisure Centre, which is less than a 10 minute walk from Seven Sisters station, or you can get the 149, 279, 259, or 349  (get off at Tottenham Green).  If you are coming on the underground, ask the bus driver for the Bernie Grant Arts Centre, you’ll find Tottenham Green Leisure Centre behind it (take the path to your right).

I look forward to seeing you there!

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P.S. Visit the Events page for information about the Natural November National Tour I’m taking part in on the 12th, 19th and 26th November!  (Birmingham, London, Manchester)

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I’ll be doing a 45 minute presentation called ‘Be-U-ti-full – Naturally!‘, will have copies of my books on sales, and will also be signing people up for my 30 Day Mind Detox (online course)

Just ONE WEEK to the Launch – BOOK your seat!

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You are invited to the Book Launch of my Revised Self-help novel ‘Journey of a Sister‘ (previously titled ‘Single, Spiritual…AND Sexual!’) and its sister-book ‘How to Get the Ring On Your Finger‘, taking place on Sunday 6th November at the newly refurbished Marcus Garvey Library in Tottenham!

Here’s a clip from the Book Launch of the First Edition:

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Pre-order your signed copy of  ‘Journey of a Sister’ for only £9.99 to reserve your seat! Haven’t read it yet?  Start the journey from Year One Free! (← click on the link to open PDF)

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Pre-order ‘Journey of a Sister‘ and ‘How to Get the Ring On Your Finger‘ together for only £14.99 (no postage) and pick them up at the Launch:

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Did you buy the First Edition books?

Buy the Second Editions for HALF PRICE!

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Bring your old books with you (or proof of purchase) to get the Revised books for 50% off! ‘Single, Spiritual…AND Sexual!’ has been re-titled ‘Journey of a Sister’ – and it includes TWO NEW CHAPTERS! (Years 12 & 13),  get yours for only £5  to find out what happened after…..

Here’s some of the feedback I received after the Book Launch of the First Edition:

“Thank You Cezanne for another fantastic event. It was very well attended, informative, healing, & it was also very nice to see so many Brothers in attendance, looking forward to reading the book, & the artwork that I won is absolutely beautiful…More power to you Sis” ~DebRose x (Founder of the Natural November National Tour see Events page for details)

“Excellent night! appreciated hearing the viewpoints of some of the brothers who contributed to “How to Get the Ring On Your Finger” albeit, some of their views may have been a bitter pill to swallow! The fact you gave us the opportunity to get together in one space discussing relationships etc. Is a credit to u. Give thanks continue to shine sis. Look forward to the next event. Peace & blessings” ~ Ashanti Michelle

The Aftermath: I will like to personally thank Cezanne for putting on such a magnificent night. It was such a pleasure becoming acquainted with so many Afro-Caribbean faces both old and new. The attendance was wonderful but even more so the contribution from the panel that included myself as well as the audience that in many ways became the panel. Their input was tremendous and the way you guys the audience welcomed my thoughts, clapped and smiled brought joy to a brothers heart so thank you for being so receptive. I would like to thank Cezanne once again for inviting me on this journey and giving me a seat on the panel. Hopefully we will have many more events like these because ‘How to get a ring on the finger’ is very important and not only are we talking a ring but commitment where in a generation that does or no longer exists. It’s about upbringing, it’s about changing a generational curse…”Author Darren Moxam

“Thank you for tonight Cezanne, had such an enjoyable and thought-provoking evening.  Great people, great vibes, great cause!  I really wish you all the best on your journey, you are really an inspiration to me and I’m sure many more.  Keep up the great work!  God
bless you x”  Siobhan

“OMD! If you missed this event, you simply missed out. Firstly let me thank Cezanne for her gracious talent and artwork you are truly a soul sis-Star and I was delighted to win your Blue Lotus artwork, it will take pride of place in my home. Darren Moxam you are magnetic and gifted with your words…in particular your response to my question about what a man looks for in a wife is enlightening. Yeah a man does want a best friend in his woman for sure.   I learned men want love just as much as a woman does and once they get it they will indeed cherish their soul mate you know the one they cannot live with out. I sat down and I listened to all the panel answered my question ‘what is the top three things you look for in a wife’? and their answers were precise and in chorus they are ultimately seeking a woman to understand them and love them unconditionally.  After tonight I am indeed ready for love and all that it brings I open my arms wide to receive it, not to squeeze it but to gently caress it and welcome love to my bosom. I am a woman strong, sexy and sassy, I vibrate and illuminate  After tonight my story is one of victory and strength in the stride of my thick thighs for I am the sum total made in the Creator’s image, perfect for the heart that is meant to love me, cherish and protect me. Tonight was not just about how to put a ring on your finger tonight was all about how to love you first. Be the love you want to receive” ~ Winsome Duncan

WIN laminated and FRAMED PRINTS of my Art!

Take part in the RAFFLE to win prints of my artwork, some of which have been hand-finished by my Self!  (e.g. Black Butterfly is finished with hand-applied diamentes for the stars).

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Read the FREE e-books ahead of the Book Launch, get your tickets quickly!

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It’s just 3 weeks to my Book Launch so I’m offering FREE DOWNLOADS on the e-books of my Self-help novel ‘Journey of a Sister‘ and its sister-book ‘How to Get the Ring On Your Finger’, read them in advance, then come and join in the Discussion!  Your personally signed paperbacks are included in the ticket price! (£9.99 for ‘Journey of a Sister’, £7.99 for ‘How to Get the Ring On Your Finger’, and £14.99 for them both!)

Journey of a Sister is  the familiar story of a young woman on her quest for ‘the Truth!’ about sex before marriage, the creative power of her thoughts, her African ancestry, and the his-story of the religion she had been indoctrinated into!  Start from Year One FREE  by clicking on the link to open the PDF!  (or download from Amazon below), also, Download Year Two FREE TODAY ONLY!

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Tomorrow, Year Three will be free to download, and so on.  This gives you the opportunity to preview the book before purchasing your SIGNED PAPERBACKS ahead of my Book Launch on Sunday 6th November!  Read the free e-books,then purchase your ticket for the event (your signed paperbacks are included in the ticket price)

Are you an Amazon Prime member?

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Borrow the whole e-book series of ‘Journey of a Sister’ from their lending library FREE!  Start from Year One:

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The SEQUEL (Years 12 & 13) is exclusively in the paperback!

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You can also get a FREE download of ‘How to Get the Ring On Your Finger‘ (which has contributions from over 30 brothers) when you subscribe, or you can borrow it from Amazon’s lending library FREE!

If you are unable to attend the Book Launch, you can still order your paperbacks and join me at a future Book Signing & Discussion Event!  Go to my previous post to pay for your books using Paypal!

To make sure you don’t miss any of the FREE downloads, ‘follow’ this blog!

Lastly, read the article in the Huffington Post about my work, courtesy of Katrina Young, who also helps with over 50’s Business Start Ups!

Hope to see you at the Book Launch!

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The Story of My Inner Child

Growing up, I had a natural ability to write and draw; my two favourite subjects at school were English Literature and Art. However, I never pursued a career in any of these areas because I lacked self confidence and didn’t believe in myself or my abilities.

As a child, I was constantly told I was worthless, good-for-nothing, didn’t deserve it (anything I wanted), and that I was ugly. These heterosuggestions went deep into my subconscious mind, and became the program I ran on as an adult. I subconsciousy believed anything I produced was also worthless, good for nothing, and ugly. 💭

I grew up with low self-esteem,  lacked self-confidence, and didn’t believe in myself.  I would screw up any piece of writing or drawings I did, because I thought they weren’t good enough – a reflection of how I felt about myself! 🤕

So instead of pursuing a career that utilized my natural God-given talents, I ended up doing Accounts, when maths was my worst subject at school! 🤦🏾‍♀️

By my mid twenties, I had stopped being creative altogether.  This was the last picture I drew (using pastels) back in 1986:

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Clearly you can see I was good at art, but my perception of myself was reflected in how I viewed my work.  My boyfriend/lover/friend had asked me to do a portrait of his favourite singer, Alexandra O’Neal from the record sleeve; when he saw my creation, he threw the original on the floor!

Still, I remained a blocked writer and artist for over 20 years after that.  My inner child was crying out to be heard, but I ignored her.

I was unfulfilled, and miserable in my job as an Accounts Clerk.

After the birth of my second ‘sun’ in 1995, I decided I wanted to do something that would work around them.  I wanted to go back to being creative, but I didn’t know how.  A book came into my life calld ‘The Artist’s Way’ by Julia Cameron, which helped me begin the process of unblocking.

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This book literally saved my inner child’s life!  I didn’t just read it, I did all the daily and weekly tasks  (it’s a 12-week course).  The first thing I was required to do was to start writing my Morning Pages, 3 A4 pages every morning of any thoughts that came to mind (it didn’t have to make sense).  The second thing was to take my inner child on weekly ‘Artist Dates‘.  This was fun!

Some parts of the process involved going deep into the recesses of my mind, to uncover where that critical voice in my head was coming from that kept saying “You? A great artist? LOL” or “You? A best-selling author? You could never amount to that!” .  The exercises helped me get to the root cause of my insecurities, and to begin counter-attacking them with POSITIVE AFFIRMATIONS like “I am a brilliant and successful artist”, “I am a prolific writer”, “I have rich creative talents”, “I am confident and competent in my creative work”, “I am a channel for the Creator to create through”, in order to get my creative juices flowing again.

‘The Artist’s Way’ taught me how to nurture my inner child, and to  give her the freedom she desired to create. As the adult, I had to learn how to step out of the way, and allow her to be free.

Before the end of the 12 week course, I was writing and painting freely!

The first painting I did when I unblocked as an artist in 2009 was of my inner child, and one of the first poems I wrote was called ‘My Artist Child’ (inspired by ‘The Artist’s Way’) which explains the inner struggle I went through to set my inner child free:

 

Cezanne (my artist) is a child.

I call to her, and she answers me

With a poem, a dance, and a squiggle-diddy!

She loves to be free, my artist

Free to explore her creativity

With no limitations, or boundaries

So what’s stopping her?

Me.

Yes ME, the adult,

Constrained in what I can see

Stuck in my blocks, and adult mentality;

“YOU CAN’T DO THAT!” I scold,

As she tries to break free;

“I want to paint!” she says.

“NO!” I reply,

(frightened of what she may tell of me,

as she paints away freely)

“I want to write!” she cries.

“No, NO!” I squeal,

(At the thought of my thoughts on paper,

she may reveal!)

“I want to dance!” she pleads.

“No, no, NO!” my senses scream

“At your age, start to….PRANCE??”

“Please, can I sing?” she begs…

She wants to paint!

She wants to write!

She wants to dance!

She wants to sing!

How can I deny my artist-child these things?

How can I refuse her the right

To be free to express her creativity?

So….I give her the paints, AND the time of day.

I give her the dance classes she’s always craved.

I allow her to write when her spirit takes

And to sing, yes to sing with the voice that God gave!

I take her out on our ‘Artist’s Dates’

And feed her IMAGES for her to relate

Back to her play-play-work-day…

Now my child, GO and CREATE!

As you can see, there was a real struggle going on between my adult self, filled with ego, self-consciousness, and learned restrictions, and my uninhibited, free-spirited inner child.  Thank goodness, my inner child won! 😅

So when I started writing my novel (now re-titled Journey of a Sister) my job as the adult was simply to step out of the way and let her be free. I used the painting My Inner Child to illustrate the front cover of the e-book for Year Two, because there’s a part in there where Suzanne inspires Charles to awaken his inner child! (in the section ‘Lace Seduction’).

Cezanne’s mission is to ‘Spread Love through Creativity’

The thing I love about my inner child is her ability to write about adult topics with the uninhibited innocence of a child, and to express herself in a way that I (the adult) wouldn’t dare to!  When I was writing ‘Journey of a Sister’ I kept hearing that critical voice inside my head saying “You can’t write that!”, but I just ignored it and allowed my inner child the freedom to write whatever she chose…so in 2009 I felt compelled to write ‘Part Two‘ to my poem:

My inner child is wild and free – she has no boundaries!

When I decided to set her free I KNEW it would cost me my privacy!

(and anyone who’s had anything to do with me

 so if that’s you, I’m sorry.)

She sits in the seat of my subconscious mind observing all I’m doing

Then she turns my experiences into a song, story or poem!

Thanks to her, my life is an open book,

Go on, open it, take a look!

And she’s left me (the adult) to deal with all the DRAMA she creates 

She doesn’t know where to draw the line!

I know I should be embarrassed, but to be honest,

All I keep seeing are POUND SIGNS ££££££££!

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Where Did the Name ‘Cezanne’ Come From?

Cezanne is my ‘spiritual’ name.  What do I mean by that?

When I was  around 14 years old, I was in the back of class one day at school, doodling on the back of my textbook (obviously bored!).  As I was drawing randomly, the name ‘Cezanne’ appeared in the doodles!  The name stuck in the back of my mind all the years I was a blocked writer and artist, and only came back to me when I had to name my inner child as part of the course in Julia Cameron’s book ‘The Artist’s Way‘.

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I’ve now changed my name by Deed Poll, in the hope that eventually, my inner child will take over completely!  Setting her free has enabled me to write and record over 30 poems, write 3 books (one is the Book of Lyrics to my award-winning poetry collection ‘Seeds of Love‘), painted 11 paintings, and I’m still creating, including building this website, writing my first speech, and developing workshops for my Retreats! 

Join me on the ‘Nurture Your Inner Child’ Retreat!

Would you like me to take you through the same processes I went through to unblock as a writer and artist?  Then join me for 7 days of work-play in the sun!  This is essentially a 7-day holiday for both women and men, with 5 days of workshops thrown in (you can do as much or as little as you like!).  All materials are included, as well as accommodation, daily meals, and 5 days of nurturing your inner child!  You’ll return home with something you have created, and the tools to keep your creative juices flowing!   As part of the course, I will also teach Colour Therapy (I healed myself from Seasonal Affective Disorder using the colours in my paintings!)

Visit my Art page to learn about the Colours & Symbolism in my paintings and to download them to your device so you can benefit from the Colour Therapy in them too!

Use the Contact Form below to register your interest in the Nurture Your Inner Child Retreat 2019 (monthly Feb to May) or email cezanne@journeyofasister.com  

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Promoting LOVE through Creativity!

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