Cezanne is a Self-taught Visual & Spoken Word Artist, Author of the Self-help novel ‘Journey of a Sister’, and its sister-book ‘How to Get the Ring On Your Finger’. She sees herself as a modern-day Moses, sent to help lead her people out of mental slavery. She does this using her natural God-given talents of writing and art; her work is a creative expression of her spiritual journey and personal development. Cezanne lives somewhere between the seen and unseen worlds…
“I was born in London in the mid 60’s of Jamaican parentage, and raised in the Christian faith. This laid a solid foundation to my spiritual growth. But I didn’t rely on church to develop my relationship with my Creator; I would spend hours reading my bible, praying, and sitting in Silence waiting to hear back from God. In 1998 I asked God what my purpose was. He responded “To promote Love through creativity”. My first thought was “Oh, thats lovely!” but my second thought was “Who am I to promote Love?” I didn’t know how to give or receive love. I was suffering from a Self Love Deficit after growing up in a home with no hugs or kisses, or being told “I love you”. But God had shown me a Love I’d never experienced before: Unconditional. So much so, that I didn’t recognize the God in the bible, compared to the One I’d developed a relationship with.
The first poems I wrote were simply things God was saying to me, which I was instructed to write down. The first one, entitled “Look to Me!” features in Year One of Journey of a Sister:
I would be inspired to write beautiful poetry, but by my mid-thirties, I had reached a point where I could no longer continue walking in blind faith; I had so many unanswered questions, so in 2001 I wrote God a fearless letter asking all the questions the church couldn’t answer, which I ended by asking for “the Truth!” The letter, (which I titled ‘The Rebellion’) features in Year One of ‘Journey of a Sister‘:
Writing this letter marked a turning-point in my life; up to that point I had walked closely with God, but I was about to embark on a new journey…
Undoing the Indoctrination
I began attracting books such as ‘The Magic of Thinking Big’, ‘Feel the Fear And Do It Anyway’, ‘Awaken the Giant Within’ and ‘Think & Grow Rich’. They weren’t Christian books, but often referred to the bible and God. I began to realize that they were teaching spiritual principles, Universal Laws, that apply to everyone regardless of religion, race, gender or social status. I began to apply what I was learning. At this time I was still suffering from low self esteem and consequently, was a blocked writer and artist.
I left church in 2007 and stumbled upon the ‘Black conscious’ community. While there, I completed a year-long Black History Course with Robin Walker, where I learned all about my rich history before slavery. I read books by Queen Afua, Dr Laila Afrika, Ra Un Nefer Amen, Walter Rodney etc. which helped me on my self-healing journey, and helped me develop pride in myself as a Black Woman, and racial pride. I grew locs, which was symbolic of me searching for my ‘roots’. I learned how Christianity had been used to take over the wealth of my Motherland, and to mentally enslave my people. I learned that the bible and other ‘holy books’ were plagiarized from ancient manuscripts, which had originally taught Spiritual Laws that would enable us to live in ‘heaven on earth’. But most of the information that would empower us had been removed, leaving just enough to keep us hooked.
It was a big shock when I discovered my roots were in Africa! This led me to write the poem ‘Who Am I?‘ which features in Year Two of Journey of a Sister (You can listen to it on the Poetry page). The only identity I had was ‘in Christ’, but I didn’t know who I was as a Black Woman, and a displaced African. I had low self esteem, but this grew as I began learning about the benefit of the colour in my skin (melanin), mitochondrial DNA, and the POW-her of my sacred yoni, all of which I’ve shared in Journey of a Sister, which is only part autobiographical.
As a child, I was psychologically damaged through merciless beatings and negative affirmations spoken to me such as “you’re worthless, good-for-nothing…” “ugly”, “you don’t deserve it” etc. On top of that I received religious programming every week at church of being a ‘poor, wretched sinner’, ‘not worthy’ etc. These became my subconscious programming. As part of my self-healing journey as an adult, I discovered that anything told repeatedly to a child in their ‘imprint period’ (age 0-7) becomes their subconscious programming in adulthood. I traced my subconscious programming back to the plantations; my ancestors were brutally treated in order to break them down mentally, and Christianity was forced upon them to make them docile and to develop ‘the attitude of a servant’. Mothers were taught to raise their children to obey and not ask questions, otherwise they would be severely punished. I was mistreated because of my dark skin, which was another way enslaved Africans were programmed to believe ‘the whiter you are, the more superior you are’.
“It’s easier to raise strong children than to mend broken adults”
Changing my subconscious programming hasn’t been easy. During my self-healing journey I learned how to meditate in order to control my negative thinking patterns, and I work with daily Positive Affirmations to change my programming. During the process I unblocked as a writer and artist and painted 11 paintings, wrote and recorded over 30 poems, and wrote Journey of a Sister and it’s sister-book How to Get the Ring on Your Finger. I was able to see how the effects of slavery and colonialism are still affecting my community today, so began to share what I’d learned through my creativity, in order to help others heal too. My motto is “As I heal myself, I heal others, and as I help others, I help myself”.
As a devout Christian, I had ‘channelled’ prophetic poetry (messages from God). Now I’d left the church I was still channelling: 46,000 words of Journey of a Sister were ‘auto-written’ (meaning I didn’t have to think about what I was writing). The graphic sex scenes were my inner child’s way of undoing the indoctrination around sex before marriage. I also channelled the scene where Suzanne and Charles performed their first sex ritual, which led me to study the creative power of sexual energy. Most of my work comes through me, rather than from me.
In 2017 I organized the Kings & Queens Book Tour and invited two authors over from the USA to join me in revealing the Secret Science of Black Male and Female Relationships! Religion separates sex from spirituality which leaves us in conflict with our true nature. The aim of the book tour was to share how elevating your consciousness will help you use your sexual energy in a more constructive way.
(Watch our interview with BlackiceTV7 on the Videos page!)
Fort Lauderdale Book Festival
In 2017 I was a Featured Author at the South Florida Book Festival, courtesy of King Kevin Dorival who took part in my Book Tour in October of that year. They had chosen to feature ‘How to Get the Ring On Your Finger’, and of course I had to explain why I never married even though I had the (engagement) ring on twice!
Visiting my Motherland
Between November 2014 to February 2015 I visited Ghana, and saw the effects of white supremacy and colonialism first-hand; images of a white saviour everywhere, religion enslaving the minds of the people, Europeans benefitting from the wealth of the land, while the majority of natives live in abject poverty. I had learned that enslaved Africans were prohibited from learning how to read and write, and nothing much had changed; those left on the Continent were still being under-educated in order to be exploited.
Between November 2017 and March 2018 I spent time in the Gambia and saw how the exact same system of white supremacy was set up there, only this time, Islam was the main religion. Whilst in the Gambia I took part in the Mboka Book Festival, and facilitated 3 ‘Self Love’ Retreats.
I also cut off my locs and buried them there, which symbolized the end of my quest to find my roots.
Seeds of Love
Between 2009-2011 I collaborated with acoustic guitarist Theo Calliste and wrote lyrics to 11 of his compositions; 8 of them feature in Journey of a Sister. In November 2014 I won the title ‘International Artist of the Year‘ in the Spokenword Billboard Awards (USA). Most of the poems were recorded in my home studio, and are available to listen to on the Poetry page. 3 of my poems feature in other people’s books, including “I Am What I WILL to Be!” which features in William Frederick Cooper’s book ‘Unbreakable‘ (Listen to it on the Poetry page).
I was originally known as ‘Cezanne Poetess‘ and enjoyed performing at various community events. Then I decided to focus on writing my novel; while writing it I had the idea to use my poetry and art to illustrate it; the main character Suzanne writes poetry, while her partner Charles is an artist! My novel was originally titled Single, Spiritual…AND Sexual!‘ After returning from Ghana I revised it, and wrote two new chapters, Years 12 & 13 (The Sequel). They outline a plan for us to save ourselves, and are exclusively in the paperback! You can read Year One FREE on the Books page! The two main characters in the story are Twin Souls; the way they met is exactly how I met my Twin. Download my FREE e-book ‘The Twin Soul Phenomenon’, which explains how meeting my Twin Flame helped me evolve, which led to me writing the book!
I hosted many Book Signing & Discussion Events where we discussed the topics raised in my Self-help books.
Where am I now?
Still on my spiritual journey…I’ve left the Black conscious community, but don’t feel like going back to church. I’m seeking to re-develop the close relationship I had with my Creator without the religious indoctrination, and whilst still retaining my Black Pride. I now know that the bible is an adaptation of ancient manuscripts which were stolen, tampered with, and re-packaged in order to create organized religion. Yet still, there’s a lot of Truth in the bible and other holy books. What really matters in the end, is my relationship with my Creator.
Along this Path of Truth I became a Targeted Individual for sharing what I discovered, and have also suffered psychic and spiritual attacks (to the point where I ended up on a psychiatric ward for a month). This only makes me think I must be doing something right!
It seemed ironic that I would come under psychic attack, with all the work I’d done to reprogram my mind! But then I realized that it was all part of my journey to MENTAL FREEDOM. I didn’t know it was possible to implant suggestions into someone’s subconscious without them knowing until it happened to me (while I was asleep). Learning to guard my subconscious mind has become an integral part of the process.
After unblocking as an artist, I painted my first collection ‘Nature’s Art’ between 2009-2010. During the process, I intuitively healed myself from the symptoms of Seasonal Affective Disorder (SAD). I held my first exhibition in 2009, and have since taken part in a number of other exhibitions.
You can learn all about the Colour Therapy & Symbolism used in my paintings, and download them from my Art Page and use them as screensavers to benefit from the Colour Therapy in them! After healing myself from SAD (a form of depression caused by lack of natural sunlight) I now teach Colour Therapy workshops, also on my Retreats.
(Facilitating a Colour Therapy workshop at Brixton Library)
The Story of my Inner Child
The book I credit with helping me to unblock as a writer and artist after 20 years is ‘The Artist’s Way’ by Julia Cameron; it taught me to nurture my inner child, and allow her the freedom to create. It was a long and slow process, but when I finally unblocked, it was as if a dam had been released and everything gushed out!
The first poem I wrote when I unblocked as a writer in 2001 was ‘My Artist Child’ and the first painting I did when I unblocked as an artist in 2008 was, of course, my inner child!
‘Cezanne’ is pronounced Sh-eh (as in elephant) –z-ann. It means “I CREATE AS I SPEAK” (that’s the meaning I gave it, as a reminder to myself!) The name came to me one day when I was aged around 14; I was in class at school doodling on the back of my exercise book (obviously bored) when the name appeared in the doodles! It stuck in the back of my mind all those years that my creativity was crippled, and only came back to me when I was going through the process of un-blocking, and had to name my inner child!
I am the proud mother of 3 ‘suns’, the jewels in my crown:
So technically, I have 3 ‘suns’ and one daughter!
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Promoting LOVE through Creativity!
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Cezanne has been interviewed on a number of radio shows including BBC radio, Galaxy, Conscious radio, as well as BEN TV, Inspire Network, BlackIceTV and No Ordinary Woman Chat Show. (See the Videos page)
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