The day before I was due to leave the Gambia, (and after a 3 day fast) my prayer to create a safe space for us to HEAL was answered; I was able to secure this lovely newly built 6 bed house for my Retreats, which is about a 10 minute walk to the beach:
Directly opposite the house is some land waiting to be developed; both are owned by Lamin Sanyang and his family, who are renting me the house. Lamin is also keen to work with me and any other investors, to build an eco village for tourism: if you’re thinking of leaving the UK or USA and like the idea of living in a village commUNITY, this will be your opportunity to ‘try before you buy!’ You’ll be able to stay in Kai Ci Kurbi Healing Village for up to 6 months; If you decide you want to live in the Gambia permanently, you can then invest in your own plot of land and home.
Join us on the ‘Let’s Build a Village’ Retreat 20-29 November/17-24 December 2018
Do you have a ‘Get Out’ plan? If you’ve been thinking about leaving the UK or USA, and like the idea of living in a village commUNITY, join us on the Let’s Build a Village Retreat 20-29 November or 17-24 December!
The cost is just £499/$499 per person (based on 2 sharing).
Airport transfers and transport for scheduled trips
Breakfast & Dinner
Trip to Kunta Kinte Island
Complimentary signed paperback of my Self-help novel Journey of a Sister
‘Evening of Reasoning’ on the topics raised in my book, with live entertainment!
This trip will enable you to come and see the land for yourself, meet your potential neighbours, and plan your exit strategy.
You can pay in flexible monthly instalments with a deposit of at least £100 (or dollars) to secure your place (full payment must be made by end Oct).
*N.B. Flights must be booked separately*
If you would like to join us email me email@example.com
I’m now raising £10,000 to furnish the 6 bed Retreat Home, there are 4 ways you can help:
1) Pay for your Retreat in full (£499)
2) Download my Art to your phone, tablet or PC and use them as a screensaver to benefit from the Colour Therapy & Love Energy in them! Make a small (or large!) contribution to my Fund as an exchange of energy! 💞
4) Alternatively, make a contribution using Paypal: www.paypal.me/cezanne121
The Self❤Love Retreat1-8 November, and 3-10 December
There are also two new dates for The Self❤LoveRetreat this year, 7 days of nurturing your Self from the inside, out! The cost is just £499/$499 per person (own room) or £250/$250 (2 sharing) which includes:
Breakfast & Dinner
5 Self nurturing workshops
Pamper Day at the luxurious Coco Ocean Hotel & Spa
Free signed paperback of my novel Journey of a Sister (which features my artwork & poetry)
You can also join me on The Self❤Love Retreat on 8-15 Feb 2019 (singles and couples), more dates will be added, email me for dates and to request to pay for your Retreat in easy monthly instalments!
Don’t delay, only 6 places on each retreat, get in touch with me today to reserve your place on any of the Retreats with a £50/$50 (minimum) deposit!
The Retreat Home will be also be available for family holidays, group trips, and practitioners from January 2019 for just £500 per week (whole house) or £100 per person per week (own room). If you’re interested in booking it, email me firstname.lastname@example.org
This Retreat Home will be a safe space for us to HEAL, see my previous post for more details!
In your service,
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Upon my return from nearly 4 months in the Gambia, I hosted an event in Tottenham, North London, where I shared my vision for a Retreat Home overlooking the sea, and a commUNITY Village, for those of us who wish to return to our Motherland. Here’s part of it:
While I was in the Gambia facilitating The Self❤Love Retreat (Dec to March), I came across some land which fulfilled a vision I’ve had for years, of having a Retreat Home overlooking the sea, with a VILLAGE nearby! Within a short space of time, I was taken to the Akala of the clan who own the land; they liked the idea of us building a village for returnees, and of us integrating with the locals; my idea of having a Retreat Home was to provide a safe space for the Black Woman to heal (not excluding the Black Man and child). I explained in my Presentation that she is the core of the family, and the family is the core of the commUNITY, so for our commUNITY to heal, the Black Woman MUST Heal!
During the process of “breaking them in”, our enslaved ancestors were subjected to a brutal form of brainwashing that also altered their DNA structure. This has been passed down from one generation to the next, so to fully comprehend the dysfunction within our community today, we need to get to the ROOT CAUSE of our issues, that is, we need to look at the CAUSE, not the effect, and the cause is buried deep in our subconscious minds.
In my Presentation, I explained that in the film ‘Get Out’, the ‘sunken place’ is his subconscious mind, and in ‘The Black Panther’, there are two scenes where they buried T’Challa and Killmonger in order for them to visit the ancestral plane, which was symbolic of them going into their subconscious.
Over the past year, I’ve been introduced to plants and herbs provided by Mother Nature that help to alter your state of consciousness, and connect you with the spirit world. I explained in my presentation, that while on a mushroom ‘trip’ last year, I got the message: ‘DNA REPAIR’. Our ancestral mothers are ready and on hand to help us heal, and some of the techniques that will be used are unconventional and frowned upon by modern medicine, yet these are things Mother Nature has provided for our healing. My work specifically centres around the Black Womban healing, because when she heals, our whole commUNITY will heal! Are you truly ready to heal?
Over the past 15 years I’ve been on my own Self-healing journey; this included working with Positive Affirmations to re-program my mind, forgiving those who I felt wronged me, un-indoctrinating my Self from religion, and learning to love myself unconditionally (this is an ongoing journey).
My Self-healing journey has been expressed through my books, art and poetry, yet I reached a point where I felt I couldn’t do anything more for myself – and I still wasn’t fully healed! I still felt held back in certain areas of my life, for example, I’m still not in a loving relationship with my soulmate, even though my work is centred around building sustainable Black relationships!
It was like peeling away layers of an onion; every time I unpeeled one layer (e.g. religion) there was something else I had to deal with underneath. The Positive Affirmations worked for some things, but not others. For instance, they worked really well to help me build confidence and self esteem, which helped me to unblock as a writer and artist, but there were other blocks that I just couldn’t seem to shift. I asked my Higher Self to reveal what I needed, which is when I came to the realization that some of the blocks were buried so deep in my subconscious, I couldn’t get to them on a conscious level; I had to go into an altered state of consciousness to reach them.
Meditation helped to quiet my mind and control my negative thinking patterns, which also helped me heal from depression. I focused on thinking positively and keeping myself in a ‘positive state of bliss’. Yet none of these things seemed to get to the ROOT CAUSE of my issues.
Then last year, I met a woman who put me in an altered state of consciousness (using weed oil), and while I was in a ‘trance’, it felt like I was receiving a spiritual download, which seemed to be affecting my past, present and future. On another occasion, I took mushrooms with this same young woman, and the message I got from the ‘trip’ was ‘DNA REPAIR’. Through my personal studies, I’ve come to learn that the past, present and future are simultaneous, not linear. If we don’t heal from the trauma of our past, it will keep coming back to haunt our present and future. We are POW-HER-FULL creators, especially womben, because we’re more emotional, and our emotions act like FUEL on our thoughts.
My work is to help the Black Womban to heal, because when she heals, our relationships heal, our families heal, and our families are what make up our commUNITY. I wrote this poem the morning after watching the film ‘Sankofa’, and dedicated it to those still suffering the psychological effects of the enslavement of our ancestors, handed down to us genetically through our DNA:
I’m a visionary; it’s my job to come up with the ideas and share them with my commUNITY, but it’s our COLLECTIVE job to bring the ideas to fruition! I’ve now found a lovely 6 bed house in Gunjur for us to rent until our own Retreat Home is built. I need to raise £10,000 by November for the rent and to furnish it, Make your contribution here.
I’m also fundraising to purchase land to build our own Retreat Home, And any surplus will go towards that project.
We’re also building a VILLAGE near the Retreat Home, so if you’ve been thinking about leaving the UK or USA and like the idea of living in a village commUNITY, join us on the Let’s Build a Village Retreat 20-29 November, or 17-24 December.
I showed some photos of the dome-shaped round homes we are thinking of building in the village, and Galactic Clyde (a builder and carpenter who also studies sacred geometry) explained the spiritual benefits of living in such homes instead of square ones:
There are 30 homes available to buy; at the Presentation 17 people expressed an interest in being part of the Village, 5 indicated that they are ready to pay their £3,000 deposit to secure their home, and 11 signed up to join us on the ‘Let’s Build a Village’ Retreat, 20-29th November 2018. You’ll have the opportunity to see the land, meet potential neighbours, and plan how our village will be laid out. If you’d like to be part of our village send me an message below.
(Profits from the Retreat Home will help to build and maintain the village)
Galactic Clyde also builds labyrinths, and he also explained the benefits of walking the labyrinth regularly; we also plan to build a labyrinth on the land, which will form part of our Retreats.
Galactic Clyde has built a labyrinth in a park in East London (Hackney Filter Beds), and we will be taking a walk on the labyrinth this Saturday 19th May between 2-6pm, if you’d like to join us, send me a message!
It takes a VILLAGE to raise a child, let’s do this for our Self, and the sake of future generations!
I’m returning to the Gambia on 22nd May, with part of the funds (hopefully!) to keep the process going, are you in? When I get back, I’ll organize another event (mid July) to share updates, you can also keep up-to-date via my Instagramand Facebook pages.
Just before I left the Gambia on the 12th March, some magical things began happening!
I was there to facilitate The Self Love Retreat, but the venues that I used weren’t 100% suitable. For years, I’ve imagined having my own Retreat Home overlooking the sea, and now that I was actually doing the Retreats, I realized I needed a Retreat Home of my own, where we could feel more comfortable.
While in the Gambia, I came across some land that was perfect for both the Retreat Home AND a Village; in 2015, I had a premonition that in 5 years time (2020), my people would be FLEEING the UK and USA, and that they would need somewhere to run TO, hence why we need to be building VILLAGES. My vision was beginning to manifest in real life!
On the way back from seeing the land, we passed a small Guest House, and a woman was sitting on the porch. She called out “Are you Cezanne?”
Bear in mind that we were in the middle of the bush; this woman recognized me from when she used to live in the UK, and we became acquainted. Because she and her husband hold high esteem within the village, and because one of her employees happens to be part of the clan who own the land, they are now helping me secure the land, and getting government approval to build on it! When I first saw the land, I was told that it was ‘TDA land’, meaning the government has reserved it as a Tourist Development Area. But in my spirit, I knew that it was land reserved for US returnees!
(Just beyond the trees in the distance is the beach, where the Retreat Home will be built, the Village will be on this part of the land)
It is with help from our ancestors that I have now been allocated 500 x 200 metres of this land, right by the sea, and I believe that when we ‘show and tell’ that we have made good use of this land, we will be able to get more! If my premonition is correct, we will need more than this piece that I’ve been allocated; you can see what’s happening to our youth, our men, our families, and our culture from living in Western society. If we truly wish to heal, we need to remove ourselves from the environment – YOU CANNOT CLEAN DISHES IN DIRTY WATER!
On Saturday 12th May between 2-4pm I’m holding an event in Tottenham, North London, to share my vision for Kai Ci Kurbi Healing Village. If you’ve been thinking about leaving the UK but don’t have a ‘Get Out’ plan, come and see if this might be for you. Not everyone will fit into the model for this particular village, which is why we need to be building VILLAGES. I’m building my tribe, you should be too! If you would like to attend, email me at email@example.com
If you are unable to attend, but would like to know more, still send me an email; the event will be filmed and put on Youtube, I’ll send you the link when it’s up!
Another magical thing that happened just before I left, was being taken to see this amazing tree in Senegal:
I lit a candle and poured libation to my ancestors, and thanked them for guidance and protection while I go through this process. When I came out from inside the tree, all the women from the village came to pray for me, it was POW-HER-FULL!
They gave me some of the soil from around the tree, and told me what to do with it. I know without a shadow of a doubt that I’m being guided to get this land to build our Retreat Home and Kai Ci Kurbi Healing Village. ‘Kai Ci Kurbi’ means ‘COME HOME’. Are you ready?
Join us on the next Self Love Retreat 25 May to 3rd June, or our mixed Retreat 21-30 November to see whether you will fit into Kai Ci Kurbi Healing Village – families welcome!
I was eager to go and see the film ‘Black Panther’ on my return from the Gambia, but I have to admit, I couldn’t see what all the big fuss was about!
Perhaps, it’s a downfall of having your third eye wide open, but I saw things for what they really were, not all the ‘frills and fancy’. For instance, TECHNOLOGY is a Western creation, which causes more harm to our Motherland than anywhere else. For instance, Congo is raped, plundered, and stripped of it’s resources for the coltane needed for our modern mobile phones.
Our true ‘super power’ is NATURE; using the elements of air, fire, water and earth, and calling on our ancestors for help and guidance.
Just as they said in the film, they hide things in plain site, and we still don’t see it.
We spent billions going to see The Black Panther, but where did the profits go? Did it go to building a Wakanda? No! It went into their pockets.
But can we build our own Wakanda? Yes!
While in the Gambia facilitating The Self Love Retreat, I found the perfect piece of land to build a Retreat Home (for The Self Love Retreat), and also to build a VILLAGE. I had the idea to build a village 3 years ago, when I received the premonition that in 5 years time (2020), my people will have to FLEE the UK and USA for their lives, and they will need somewhere to run TO. Do you have a ‘Get Out’ plan? Also, the next generation of children need somewhere to be raised that is conducive to their mental, emotional, physical and spiritual health, away from Western ideologies. My personal intention for building a village is so that when my grandchildren start coming, they will be raised in the village!
Why not turn ‘Wakanda’ into reality?
I will be building my own little ‘heaven on earth’, and would love you to join me! The land is currently labelled as ‘TDA’ land (Tourist Development Agency), but every time I go there, I feel a pull in my gut that lets me know it’s OUR ancestral land, ready for us to claim! Are you in? I’m looking for 50 people to get involved in the Kai Ci Kurbi Village project (Kai Ci Kurbi means ‘Come Home’ in Wollof, one of the main languages spoken in the Gambia), where we will lobby the government for some of the land. On the beachfront will be the Retreat Home, the village will be behind on the mainland, and behind the village will be farmland for us to grow our own food – you’ve got to see it to believe it! Why not join me in the Gambia in May to come and see for yourself? I’ve already started putting things in motion for my part of the land, and if you’ve been thinking about leaving the UK or USA (or Caribbean), you can do the same!
I’m doing an event on Saturday 12th May 2-4pm in Tottenham, North London, to share my vision for Kai Ci Kurbi Healing Village; if you’d like to attend, send me a message below.
Make a contribution to The Self Love Retreat Fund, which will go towards buying the land and building the Retreat Home – everyone who makes a donation will be put on the list to receive subsidized places when the Retreat Home is built! Plant a seed TODAY for the future you want to see BLOSSOM!
According to the Law of Nature, ‘you reap what you sow’. You can’t plant an apple seed and expect to harvest an orange.
If you want more LOVE, plant Seeds of Love; start by filling your Self with Love, so you will radiate love and become a LOVE MAGNET. Then spread the love you feel inside to others.
If you’re suffering from a Self Love Deficit (like I was) spend time alone, look at yourself in the mirror (make eye contact with yourself) and say “I LOVE YOU”. Do this a few times. Secondly, Pour water in a glass and speak into it “I LOVE YOU”, then drink it. We do this on The Self Love Retreat, you can also do it as a 30 Day Self Love Challenge and see what happens! (Let me know!)
If you want better/stronger RELATIONSHIPS do kind things for others; practice the principles ‘do unto others as you would have them to unto you’, and ‘love your neighbour as you love yourself‘. This includes:
Not gossiping about others behind their back
Helping others when you can
If you want better HEALTH, plant a health seed today; write a PLAN of how you intend to get fitter/healthier. This might include:
Eating healthier meals/eliminating junk food
Adding more fruits, veg, seeds and food provided by Mother Nature to your diet
Drinking at least a litre of water a day
Eliminating white sugar, flour and dairy products
Exercising more, e.g. doing stretches when you wake up in the morning, or walking for at least 20 minutes a day.
Getting adequate sleep
If you want more MONEY, then plant a money seed, and make sure you plant it in FERTILE SOIL!
Save 10% of your income (give to yourself first)
Give to good causes
Help others in need when you can
These are all good seeds to plant, which will blossom in the future. Again, the Law of Nature shows us that when you plant a seed today, it has to go through various stages of germination, budding, and growing before it reaches full bloom, or harvest. The Laws of Nature never fail! If you want more MONEY, today I’m giving you the opportunity to plant a money seed into FERTILE SOIL: Make a contribution to The Self Love Retreat Fund so I can offer subsidized places on my Retreats! This week, I teamed up with Dawn Mbaatay (Organization) to build a VILLAGE; they are building Phase One, Numbi Village, and we will be building Phase Two, which will include a Retreat Home for those needing to come for Self-healing, read my Vision Statement for > Kai Ci Kurbi Healing Village < (Kai Ci Kurbi means ‘Come Home‘).
As we were on our way to the beach from purchasing the land for Numbi Village, we came across this deserted government-owned land.
If you know me at all, I’m a visionary, and I make things happen! I’ve had this photo on my Vision Board for the past couple of years:
This is my vision of the view from our Retreat Home!
The man in blue, Ousman, says he owns the land, but it is ‘TDA’ which means the government has said it cannot be developed. However, if we build a water-hole, and approach the government with plans for how we plan to develop the land, they will give some to us. We are going to approach the government based on the fact that we are repatriates, and we need the land to build our village. But we need to pool our resources together to buy the land, and develop it!
My Vision Statement is being drawn up into a professional Proposal to be submitted to the Gambian government, for how we plan to develop the land. I live by the motto “Whatever the MIND can CONCEIVE, it can ACHIEVE – I can CREATE whatever I can IMAGINE!”
Are you part of my tribe?
I’m seeking just 50 people who align with my vision, to build Phase 2, Kai Ci Kurbi Village; this will involve investing to purchase the land (initially £150,000), and building the village. At the moment, the land is reserved by the government, but we were told by Ousman that if we build a waterhole and show the government that we can build, they will give us some of the land. If you would like to be part of this, send me a message: firstname.lastname@example.org
In the meantime, I’m planning on renting a Villa in the Gambia for two years to run the Retreats from, which will enable me to offer subsidized places on my retreats. People will also be able to rent it for their own holidays, which will go towards the building project. Make a contribution to The Self Love Retreat Fund – if you prefer to contribute using Paypal, use the email: email@example.com
“Every day is a SEED to your future Happiness, Success, and Well-being; plant the seeds TODAY for the FUTURE you want to see BLOSSOM!” ~ Cezanne
Watch my video-poem:
The Laws of Nature never fail! Depending on the seed you plant, will determine the harvest you receive – are you planting a FLOWER or a TREE?
I’m seeking to ‘build my tribe‘, if you align with my vision, Let’s Build a Village! Read my Vision Statement, and make a contribution to the Fund – don’t miss out! The names of all those who have contributed to the Fund will go on a list, to be able to receive subsidized rates for future Retreats.
If you’ve read my ARTicle ‘Use Your Subconscious Mind to Create the Life YOU Choose!‘ you would know that you can CREATE whatever you can IMAGINE, and that there’s a PROCESS.
For years, I’ve cultivated the idea of being able to work anywhere in the world, and now I’m doing it; I’ve been in the Gambia since November, facilitating The Self Love Retreat, writing, and also doing book editing jobs.
“Whatever the MIND can CONCEIVE, it can ACHIEVE – you can CREATE whatever you can IMAGINE!”
For years, I’ve also cultivated the idea (seed) of building a VILLAGE – I didn’t know HOW, I just put it out there. My thinking was that for our commUNITY to truly heal, we need to get back to the way our ancestors lived, in real communities. We grew and shared food with each other, helped each other raise our children (it takes a village to raise a child), the women were the backbone of the commUNITY, and our elders were given high status, as they had the wisdom and experience to pass down to the next generation. Children spent time with their grandparents, and benefited from their wisdom. Men and women knew their roles, and stayed within them; this created HARMONY.
During January I spent a lot of time on my own, in the Silence, tuning IN (it was during this time that I wrote my speech ‘Use Your Subconscious Mind to Create the Life YOU Choose!). Shortly after, I met brother Musa, who, with his wife Nailah and their commUNITY, are already in the process of building NumbiHealing Village in the Gambia. From speaking with him, I realized that our visions line up, and so I have now aligned myself with what they are doing, to build Phase 2. Last week, we had a monumental gathering of Gambians, African-Americans, and African-Caribbeans to see how we could work TOGETHER to build a VILLAGE! In attendance was a professional builder, surveyor, electrician and an architect, as well as locals, and people ready to invest, such as myself.
Brother Ra, an African-American who lived in Ghana for 10 years, has been in the Gambia for 7 months; his background is in hospitality, tourism and education. Having been involved in setting up similar projects in Ghana, and learning from their mistakes, he’s now looking to do something similar in the Gambia. He is a great asset to our project, be a part of it too!
Numbi Village is already fully funded and patronized. I’m looking for 50 like-minded people to work with me in building Phase 2, Kai Ci Kurbi Village (Kai Ci Kurbi means ‘come home’ in Wollof, one of the main languages spoken in the Gambia). Read my >> Vision Statement for Kai Ci Kurbi Healing Village <<
Those who were left on the continent did not escape the evils of colonialism, and in my opinion, have suffered just as much as we have psychologically, spiritually, and financially, while others benefit from the wealth of our Motherland. By pooling our resources TOGETHER, we can rebuild our infrastructures, and develop a do-for-self attitude, instead of thinking that we need to rely on others to help us heal and rebuild.
Those of us who are the descendants of enslaved Africans, who were stripped of our culture, names, language and spirituality, are slowly finding our way ‘back home’, which I now realize is a state of being. To facilitate this return to our roots, being in the sun, spending time in nature, eating food provided by Mother Nature, and spending time ‘going within’ is vital. This is why I’ve organised another Retreat for this November, this time for both women and men, where you’ll be able to see for yourself what we’re doing here, learn more about the vision, and get involved in Phase 2 of the ‘Build a Village’ project, ‘Kai Ci Kurbi’. It’s time to COME HOME! I predicted around 3 years ago that in 5 years time, our people are going to have to flee from the UK and USA, and that they’re going to need somewhere to go. This was the basis upon which I wanted to build a village, so that my people had somewhere to run TO.
Are you ‘coming home’?
Join me in the Gambia November 21-30 for a 10-day Retreat where you will be able to see the first building project, and get involved in Phase 2! The pilot project, Numbi Village is patronized by around 25 people. We are looking for 50 people to patronize Phase 2, Kai Ci Kurbi Village (more about this in my next post), to invest in the building project and be ready to move into the Village, (or to provide accommodation for renting.) The Retreat in November costs just £899 which includes transfers to/from the airport, 9 nights accommodation with breakfast, a visit to Numbi Village building project, a gathering to plan Phase 2 including locals, 3 Self-nurturing workshops with my Self (in place of The Self Love Retreat, optional). Khensu I-Em Hotep, author of the forthcoming book ‘Spirit-Osis (Spiritual Disorder), the ROOT CAUSE of All Modern Dis-eases‘, and founder of The Melanin Clinic will also be attending the Retreat, sharing important information to help you Self-heal. We will also have an Evening of Reasoning to discuss the topics raised in my Self-help novel ‘Journey of a Sister‘ which you’ll get FREE when you book to join us on the Retreat! (It will help you ‘innerstand’ my thinking behind rebuilding our commUNITY). An overnight trip to Senegal on safari, and a day trip to Kunta Kinte Island are optional extras. If you’re seriously thinking about getting involved in Phase 2, book your place early, as there are only 10 places on this trip; easy monthly payment plans available – pay a £100 deposit to secure your place, singles and couples welcome:
While we are in the building process, I plan to rent a Retreat home, which will be used to run the Retreats from, this would mean that you only have to pay for your flights and spending money! We can rent a 5 bedroom house for around £5,000 per year; make a contribution to The Self Love Retreat Fund to enable me to offer subsidized places on each Retreat; The Law of Nature states that if want to reap a harvest, you must sow a seed of that kind, so I’m giving you the opportunity to sow your money seed into fertile soil!
I’m back in London temporarily between March and May…
There’s a saying: “Whatever the mind can conceive, it can achieve.”
If you can think up an idea, you also have the capacity to achieve it. I’m in the process of re-creating my life how I choose it to be, and there’s nothing stopping you from doing the same – other than the seeds that are planted in your subconscious mind.
Now there’s another level to this: your subconscious mind makes sure that you function exactly according to your programming. It makes sure that everything you SAY and DO is consistent with your ‘master program’. What IS your master program? Remember I said that you were programmed between the ages of 0-7? Anything that goes into your subconscious mind during this imprint period becomes the program you run on for the rest of your life – unless you change it, and changing it isn’t that easy; it’s like un-installing all the programs from a computer, then re-installing new ones. Well I wish it was as simple as that! This isn’t stuff I’m just regurgitating from a book, it’s information I had to learn in order to re-program my own mind, because I kept sabotaging my success. For instance, when I was 19 I met this beautiful soul. We were the same age and he was the perfect boyfriend. I’d never had anyone show me such unconditional love, I couldn’t do anything wrong in his eyes. He was the physical MANifestation of God’s Love for me. When we were both 21, he proposed. But as soon as I got the engagement ring on my finger, I started to sabotage the relationship. I cheated on him and we broke up. I ended up having my children with men who didn’t truly love me, while he’s been married over 20 years. I even had another chance at true love as a single mother with two young suns, but my subconscious programming wouldn’t allow me to believe I was worthy or deserving of such love. On another occasion, in 2009 I received a lump sum of over £20,000, and within 3 months, I’d spent it all and was worse off than before I received the money! How could this be possible? My subconscious programming wouldn’t allow me to hold on to the money – I was programmed to be poor, a failure, and to not accept anything good that came my way, because I wasn’t worthy or deserving of it.
Your subconscious programming is the key to your SUCCESS or FAILURE. If you’ve been programmed for success from an early age, great! But if you’ve been programmed for failure, you must change your subconscious programming. This is where ‘The Secret‘ and other Law of Attraction material failed many of us, because they didn’t go into our subconscious programming.
To get to the ROOT CAUSE of your issues, you have to dig deep into your subconscious mind. No-one can re-program your mind for you. Well, there are NLP practitioners and hypnotists, but personally, I’m a bit dubious about subjecting my subconscious mind to someone else’s suggestions. So I’ve accumulated hundreds of Positive Affirmations relating to health, relationships, business, family, finances etc which I can share with you to help you re-program your subconscious mind.
Now I’ll let you into a little secret of my own, which I shared in the book ‘How to Get the Ring On Your Finger’, and which I also take people through on my Retreats: When you’ve developed your list of Positive Affirmations (which I can help you with), record them onto your smartphone using the voice recorder. You can play some meditation music in the background if you like, to help relax your mind. Play them to yourself when you’re in a relaxed state, like when you’re about to go to sleep, or waking up. Be sure to turn off any distractions before you start. If you’re using your phone, put it on flight mode to avoid any interruptions. I’ll get you started with a few affirmations from my own collection, repeat them to your Self slowly, deliberately, and repeatedly:
“I am whole, perfect, strong, powerful, loving, harmonious and happy”
“I am in perfect health; mind, spirit and body”
“I am mentally, emotionally, spiritually, physically and financially FREE!”
“I am the master of all my thoughts and feelings”
“All my thoughts are rooted in love”
“I am consciously uprooting negative thoughts and replacing them with positive thoughts”
“I am planting Seeds of Love in the Garden of my mind”
“I am operating on the highest frequency, which is love”
“I am re-programming my subconscious mind for GOOD”
Hmmmm….how do you feel now?
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Ok, let’s use another metaphor; think of your subconscious mind as a computer; a computer runs on a PROGRAM, or on various programs. Until it’s programmed, it can do nothing. A young child’s mind is like an un-programmed computer.
While I was going through the process of figuring out my mind in order to get it to work properly, I discovered that children go through what’s known as the ‘imprint period’, between the ages of 0-7. Whatever they’re told repeatedly during this period becomes their subconscious programming. This subconscious programming is very difficult to change after the imprint period. That’s why Frederick Douglas said “It’s much easier to raise strong children, than to mend broken adults”, and why the bible says “Train up a child in the way it should go, and when it is old, it will not depart from it”. These are two examples of how deep this programming goes.
Now what if you were programmed for failure, like I was?
My programming at home was ‘You’re ugly, you’re worthless, you’re good-for-nothing, you don’t deserve it (whatever I wanted), and ‘not good enough’ (anything that I did)’. Then on top of that I went to church every week where I was programmed to beLIEve I was born in sin, was a was a poor, wretched sinner, was unworthy, and that I needed to be washed white as snow by a white savior in order to feel good about myself. I’m not saying this to name or shame anyone, I’m simply sharing what I found when I dug deep into my subconscious mind, to get to the ROOT CAUSE of my issues. So by the time I was in my early twenties, I had low self-esteem, didn’t believe in myself or my God-given talents, was a blocked writer and artist, suffered from severe bouts of depression, had mental breakdowns, and was even suicidal; I didn’t think my life was worth living. Obviously I didn’t kill myself, but I thought about it enough times!
After the birth of my second sun, I knew I had to fix up; it wasn’t just my life at stake anymore, I had two little people to think about as well. So I started the process of Self-healing. This was back in the 90’s. At the time, Anthony Robbins was all the rage on the Self-development scene; I read his books, listened to his CD’s, and even attended one of his seminars. I also read lots of other Self-development books like ‘The Magic of Thinking Big’ by David J. Schwartz, ‘As a Man Thinketh’ by James Allen, ‘Feel the Fear and Do it Anyway’ by Susan Jeffers, and ‘The Artist’s Way’ by Julia Cameron. They all began to show me the creative power of my mind. But it was in 2007 when ‘The Secret‘ had exploded on the scene, that I really began to take control of my thoughts. At the time I was homeless; I’d sent my 3 suns to live with their fathers, and was at my lowest point ever. Yet this was my biggest opportunity to change my life for GOOD. I started learning how to meditate, and as a result, I unblocked as a writer and artist, painted 11 paintings, published three books, and wrote and recorded over 30 poems, all of which were creative expressions of what I was learning at the time – the creative power of my mind. But something else extraordinary began to happen; I began to access my super-conscious mind.
What is your super-conscious mind, and how do you access it?
I would say that your super-conscious mind is the part of you that’s connected to your Source. You can only access your super-conscious mind through your sub-conscious mind. Think of it like this:
Your conscious mind is on ground level, your sub-conscious mind is underground, and your super-conscious mind is way up in the skies…. What does this remind you of? You’re right, a tick! (Maybe Nike knows something we don’t – well, we do now!) I didn’t learn this from anywhere, it came to me while I was writing this ARTicle, I was like, WOW! But where did this idea come from? My super-conscious mind. I have a tendency to auto-write, which means, I’m not really thinking about what I’m writing – I’m not consciously making it up, I simply allow it to come through me; much like how this ARTicle was written (It was originally meant to be a speech). I also wrote 46,000 words of my Self-help novel ‘Journey of a Sister’ that way, and they formed the most beautiful story-line! I didn’t sit down and construct the beginning, middle and end, like they teach you to do in Creative Writing classes, I let the story unfold by itself. These are examples of how I use my super-conscious mind. So in order to access your super-conscious mind, you need to go down into your sub-conscious mind, which means your conscious mind needs to be put to rest. This is the purpose of meditation, or relaxation. If your mind is constantly on the go, you won’t be able to access your super-conscious mind. If you allow yourself to be distracted by the tv, radio, phone calls, internet etc, you won’t be able to access your super-conscious mind. Let me give you another example: One day I was lying on the sofa in a state of deep relaxation. I wasn’t meditating, I was listening to one of my favourite indie groups, Fertile Ground. As I listened to their track (also called ‘Fertile Ground’) with my eyes closed, I was drifting in between sleep and consciousness – when all of a sudden this image just flashed in my mind:
It was only for a split second, but it was as if it left an impression on my mind, because I was able to get up and draw all the details. Now, I know this image didn’t come from ME, because I wasn’t even able to relate to it at first! It took around 3 months for me to get around to painting it, because I found her big belly a bit off-putting; I certainly wasn’t feeling broody, and I’m not keen on the idea of a ‘white wedding’ either. Yet ‘Love Bump‘ now illustrates Year 11 of ‘Journey of a Sister‘!
I didn’t think up the whole composition, so where did it come from? I had accessed the Universal Mind (where all ideas reside) through my super-conscious mind, because my conscious mind was laid to rest. I was drifting in and out of sleep, so my sub-conscious mind was dominant, and somehow, I had connected with my super-conscious (probably with the aid of the music I was listening to).
Now the title of this blog series is ‘Use Your Subconscious Mind to Create the Life YOU Choose’. I had set an intention long before doing my paintings, writing my books, or recording my poetry, to buy my house with cash. Once I set the intention, I began to be in-spired and to attract everything I needed to help me reach my goal. It didn’t happen overnight…I’ve been at this for over 15 years.
Yes, there’s a process.
So let’s get back to the metaphor of the mind being a garden; there are different types of seeds you can plant, some take longer to blossom and bloom than others – the process doesn’t happen overnight – sometimes I wondered if it even really worked at all! But each time I questioned the process, I was reminded that I didn’t plant a flower, I’d planted a TREE.
Most people would have given up by now, but what else could I do? Go and get a 9-5 job? That would never help me reach my goal! Go back to uni and get a degree in creative writing or art? I’ve always dropped out of classes because they stifled my free-spirited way of creating.
I just had to trust the process….
In the last part of this series, I’m going to share with you how I re-program my subconscious mind for success, and how you can more easily do the same, click here to read it!
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Plant your MONEY Seed – I Am Fertile Soil!
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This is why it’s so important that you guard your subconscious mind, in fact the job of your conscious mind is to guard your subconscious mind. See, your subconscious mind is like a young child; it doesn’t think or reason for itself, it simply accepts any information given to it from your conscious mind, the (adult) gardener as facts. You can either plant your own seeds, or you can allow other people to plant seeds in your mind for you (this is generally what most people do). Your conscious mind takes IN-formation through what you see and what you hear, which determine the seeds that you plant. If this IN-formation is good, you’re going to feel good and plant positive thought-seeds. If the IN-formation’s not so good, you’re going to feel bad and plant negative thought-weeds in your subconscious mind. Now your emotions are the water which causes your thought-seeds to grow at a much faster rate. This is the easiest way I can explain this process, so let me repeat it again; your emotions water your thought-seeds and make them grow that much quicker. So for instance, if you allow your mind to be manipulated by the media, the news, and social media, your emotions will be all over the place. One minute you’ll be reading a meme that makes you think “Oh, that’s so beautiful, life is wonderful, the universe is for me, I can do anything!” and you feel positive, optimistic, and loving. Then the next minute you read or watch something that makes you think “Oh my god, how can this be happening in the world? That’s so wrong! Life is against me, I’m going to march to change it!” and you feel angry, frustrated, even depressed. So there you go; you’ve just planted two different thought-seeds in your subconscious mind; one positive, and one negative – just like your own garden; you plant a flower, and a weed will spring up right alongside it. That’s what I love about Mother Nature, she’s the greatest teacher; if you want to know anything about life, just look at nature! So as I was saying, you can plant seeds in your own mind, or you can allow others to plant the seeds for you. That’s why I stopped watching the news over 15 years ago – it just made me feel depressed! I spend very little time on social media because I just don’t know what’s going to pop up! I’m very careful about what I allow into my subconscious mind.
I can’t wait to get onto the role of the super-conscious mind, but first I want to make sure you understand – or innerstand – the roles of the conscious and sub-conscious minds.
So let me explain it again; your mind is the GARDEN, and your thoughts are the SEEDS. Your conscious mind is the gardener, and your subconscious mind is the FERTILE SOIL into which the seeds are planted. I first learnt this metaphor from the book ‘Think and Grow Rich’ by Napoleon Hill. I’ve been thinking about being rich for a very long time – I had to, in order to change my religious programming of being a poor, wretched sinner. Why do I want to be rich? So I can reach my full potential, and help others reach their full potential too; I want to be able to travel the world, and see all the beauty of Mother Nature; I want my three ‘suns’ to be able to travel too, so they can realize that there’s more to life than working a 9-5 job to pay bills. I want to be able to buy my house with cash, and I want to be able to inspire others to live their dreams too. So what seeds are you planting in your subconscious mind? All thoughts are either rooted in LOVE or FEAR. Those are the only two places that they can come from. The root of all hateful thoughts is fear, so fear is the opposite of love, not hate.
If you look at my painting ‘Self Love‘, you’ll see that her thoughts are rooted in LOVE:
Her mind is the garden, and it’s growing beautiful flowers – not a weed in sight! You can’t see the root of her thoughts, because they’re buried underground, in her subconscious. But you can see the results of her subconscious thoughts, the beautiful flowers.
So how do you know what your subconscious thoughts are? Now this is where it begins to get interesting (if it wasn’t already!)…
In Part 3, I’ll show you how to get to the ROOT CAUSE of any issues you may be facing, and how you can begin the process of transforming your life for GOOD! Click here to read it!
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Have you ever heard the saying that we only use 5% or 10% maximum of our brain power? Do you believe it? Well it’s not true, it’s that consciously we only use up to 10% – the rest is the domain of our sub-conscious mind.
So how did I, Cezanne, a simple Artist, Poetess and Author come to learn about the power of our subconscious mind?
I stumbled upon this information because I had to figure out what was going on in my OWN mind. I mean, I was multi-talented, but was failing at everything I put my hands to; I just seemed to keep sabotaging my success in my career, relationships, family, money – my whole life was a mess! So I needed to study the mind in order to fix mine, and I had no idea that it would take me on such a beautiful journey, which I’m going to take YOU on now…
So let me start by explaining what the sub-conscious mind is, and how it relates to the conscious mind, and the super-conscious mind. Are you ready? Okay, use your imagination to picture an iceberg…there are two parts to this iceberg; the smaller part is above sea level; however the majority of the iceberg is underwater. The part you can see above water represents your conscious mind, and the majority of the iceberg which is underwater represents your sub-conscious mind. The word sub relates to being ‘under’, like submerged, submarine and sub-conscious. Therefore your sub-conscious is the part of your mind that is ‘under’ – it’s unseen. Your conscious mind is on the surface, that’s the part of your mind that you and everyone else relates to. But your subconscious mind is the bigger part of the iceberg – the other 90%. See?
Another metaphor I like to use when referring to the subconscious mind is of it being underground; your thoughts are the seeds, your conscious mind is the gardener planting the seeds, and your subconscious mind is the fertile soil that the seeds are planted into. My painting ‘Black Orchid’ illustrates this perfectly:
The black background represents the dark soil of the subconscious mind. Her thought-seeds are being planted into the fertile soil, which then goes through various stages of germination and budding, until eventually it reaches full bloom. She looks happy, so she must be planting positive thought-seeds in the garden of her mind. The affirmation for this painting is “I am blossoming!” which also means “I am prospering!”
Now here’s the catch; whether your thoughts are POSITIVE or NEGATIVE, they still go through this same process. So are you planting positive thought-seeds, or negative thought-weeds in the garden of your mind?
You can choose whether to grow flowers, or to grow weeds, or like most gardens, they can both grow side by side. Your job as the gardener is to consciously uproot negative thought-weeds and replace them with positive thought-seeds, in order to keep the garden of your mind well cultivated. Because whatever’s growing in your subconscious mind is going to blossom at some point, for all around you to see…
Watch my video-poem ‘Fertile Soil‘ to get a better ‘inner-standing’ of this process, which I wrote and recorded in 2009 when I was learning how to uproot my negative thought-weeds and replace them with positive thought-seeds:
In Part Two, I’ll explain why it’s important to guard your subconscious mind, and how to guard your subconscious mind, click here to read it!
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