I Am Fertile Soil!

What does it mean to have a ‘Fertile Mind’?

My poem ‘Fertile Soil’ from  my CD ‘Seeds of Love’ explains:

Chorus:

I am fertile soil

When I plant Seeds of Love

In the garden of my mind

They’re gonna blossom!

Verse 1:

Think of every thought you have as a SEED

The thoughts you sow, you will reap;

Thoughts rooted in Love will grow into beautiful flowers

And thoughts rooted in Fear will grow into fast-growing weeds!

(repeat Chorus)

Verse 2:

All thoughts are either rooted in LOVE or FEAR

(Fear is the opposite of Love)

Thoughts rooted in Love, will produce a harvest after their own kind,

And thoughts rooted in fear will produce a harvest after their own kind

So plant Seeds of Love in the garden of your mind!

(repeat Chorus)

Thoughts rooted in Love produce a harvest of health, wealth, happiness and peace

While thoughts rooted in fear produce a harvest of sickness, lack, poverty and disease!

Chorus:

I am fertile soil (rep)

When you plant your Seeds of Love

In the garden of my mind

They’re gonna blossom!

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(repeat Chorus)

Just remember, you reap what you sow…..

The process of ‘tending to the garden of your mind’ involves uprooting negative thoughts as soon as they spring up, and replacing them with positive thought-seeds:  Negative thoughts are like WEEDS, which if left unattended, will spring up fast and CHOKE your positive thought-seeds;  Mother Nature really has shown the way!

I am Fertile Soil

I used to suffer from depression, but when I learnt how to meditate, it helped me to control my negative thinking patterns.  My painting ‘Self Love’ flashed into my mind just as I was about to fall asleep one night in 2009.  I drew the image and painted it a couple of weeks later. It wasn’t long after this, that I started learning how to meditate.

‘Fruitful Mind’ (Male & Female)

Fruitful Mind Male & FemaleMy paintings ‘Fruitful Mind’ (Male and Female) compliment each other; they are symbolic of being ‘in the same place mentally’.  It helps if you surround your Self with people who are on the same wavelength as you mentally. The golden fruit symbolizes good thoughts that produce a good harvest.

You can get a SIGNED COPY of the ‘Seeds of Love’ CD & its Book of Lyrics from www.singlespiritualandsexual.com/Products (My artwork has been used to illustrate my poems!)

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‘Fertile Soil’ features in Year Three of my Self-help novel Single, Spiritual…AND Sexual!‘, start the journey by reading Year One FREE!

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Book Launch Review

I’m feeling totally inspired after the launch of my latest Self-help book ‘How to Get the Ring On Your Finger!’

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Here’s some of the feedback I received:

“Thank You Cezanne for another fantastic event. It was very well attended, informative, healing, & it was also very nice to see so many Brothers in attendance, looking forward to reading the book, & the artwork that I won is absolutely beautiful; I think synchronicity is very much at play here; the photo reminds me of ‘Him’, I believe he was Heaven Sent & the day before yesterday he sent me a photo of himself wearing blue with his arms outstretched. Do I want a ring on my finger? I’d prefer chemistry, commitment, communication, elevation, motivation & trust, all of which I’m receiving & very grateful for. The gift of the artwork is the ‘confirmation’.  More power to you Sis, speak to you soon & enjoy your retreat in Ghana, DebRose x

(Debrose won a framed print of ‘Wings of an Eagle‘ in the Raffle – I Raffled 4 framed prints, a signed copy of both my books, and some laminated prints of my artwork)

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“Excellent night! appreciated hearing the view points of some of the brothers who contributed to “How to Get the Ring On Your Finger” albeit, some of their views may have been a bitter pill to swallow! The fact you gave us the opportunity to get together in one space discussing relationships etc. Is a credit to u. Give thanks continue to shine sis. Look forward to the next event. Peace & blessings” ~ Ashanti Michelle

“The Aftermath: I will like to personally thank Cezanne Poetess for putting on such a magnificent night. It was such a pleasure becoming acquainted with so many Afro-Caribbean faces both old and new. The attendance was wonderful but even more so the contribution from the panel that included myself as well as the audience that in many ways became the panel. Their input was tremendous and the way you guys the audience welcomed my thoughts, clapped and smiled brought joy to a brothers heart so thank you for being so receptive. I would like to thank Cezanne Poetess once again for inviting me on this journey and giving me a seat on the panel. Hopefully we will have many more events like these because ‘How to get a ring on the finger’ is very important and not only are we talking a ring but commitment where in a generation that does or no longer exists. It’s about upbringing, it’s about changing a generational curse. It’s about good teachings. I would also like to Thank You Kwame McPherson for the very welcomed voice of know, I see a good brother when I meet one and your book is on the hit list” …… Author Darren Moxam www.darrenmoxam.com

“Thank you for tonight Cezanne, had such an enjoyable and thought-provoking evening.  Great people, great vibes, great cause!  I really wish you all the best on your journey, you are really an inspiration to me and I’m sure many more.  Keep up the great work!  God
bless you x”  Siobhan

“OMD! If you missed this event, you simply missed out. Firstly let me thank Cezanne Poetess for her gracious talent and artwork you are truly a soul sis-Star and I was delighted to win your Blue Lotus artwork, it will take pride of place in my home. Danni Blechner what an awesome pre birthday celebration eh, thanks for rolling with me Miss Entrepreneur or is it Mrs? Teehee. Darren Moxam you are magnetic and gifted with your words…in particular your response to my question about what a man looks for in a wife is enlightening. Yeah a man does want a best friend in his woman for sure. Author Kwame McPherson your poetry was so beautiful that I had to film it, you connected with me on a soul level and I felt every single word.  I learned men want love just as much as a woman does and once they get it they will indeed cherish their soul mate you know the one they cannot live with out. I sat down and I listened to all the panel answered my question ‘what is the top three things you look for in a wife’? and their answers were precise and in chorus they are ultimately seeking a woman to understand them and love them unconditionally. Here’s to: How To Get The Ring On Your Finger clink clink champagne glass mi thinks.  ***After tonight I am indeed ready for love and all that it brings I open my arms wide to receive it, not to squeeze it but to gently caress it and welcome love to my bosom. I am a woman strong, sexy and sassy, I vibrate and illuminate  After tonight my story is one of victory and strength in the stride of my thick thighs for I am the sum total made in the Creator’s image, perfect for the heart that is meant to love me, cherish and protect me. Tonight was not just about how to put a ring on your finger tonight was all about how to love you first. Be the love you want to receive” ~ Winsome Duncan

Me with Danniella Blechner and Lyrical Healer

(Me with authors Winsome Duncan on the left, and Danni Blechner on the right)

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I started off by sharing my inspiration behind writing the book, and doing a minute’s Silence: my book launch was on the same day as my grandmother Lena’s passing over, and I acknowledged her, and all our ancestors who have made it possible for us to be here today:

Some of the brothers who contributed to the book sat on the Panel, read their contributions and took questions from the audience, which went down really well!  I asked the audience “What is a Soul Mate?” and we deliberated on this question, and whether we as Afrikans should be following the Western view on marriage and the ‘White Wedding’; should we be looking to get a ring on our finger, or should we be looking to get back to a more Afrocentric Spiritual Union?

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Panel members from left to right: Jak Beula (of the game ‘Nubian Jak’), Author Kwame McPherson, Author Darren Moxam, Sculptor Rudi Seebran and Suraj (Seeds of Elevation)

Author Kwame McPherson read his poem ‘You Are…’ Pt 1 which features in the section at the back of the book ‘Poetry from our Brothers‘ (Part 2 is also included!)

The crowd

I performed my poem “I Need a MAN!” just before the break:

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Purchase your paperback copy from Lulu for just £6.79 (15% discount for purchasing at Lulu – you can also order my other books and save on postage!).

 Many thanks for your continued support!

Are you Ready for Love?  Purchase your copy of  ‘How to Get the Ring On Your Finger!

Ready for Love‘ by India Arie

Thanks India for saying everything I wanted to say in that song!  Since I’m feeling totally loved up right now, I’m also going to share this video by Anthony David which I love, called ‘4Evermore’:

 Nothing beats Black Love!

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You Are Invited To…Bring Back The Love Pt. 3!

This might be the only drama you want in your relationship…

BAP flyer3Join us for a fun evening where we’ll be exploring relationship issues relating to Admiration, Validation,  Approval & Reassurance!

Four drama sketches will be performed in front of a Guest Panel with Audience Participation – YOU!

IT’S NOT TOO LATE!  

Purchase your tickets online using secure Paypal, and pick them up on the door!

For more details and to get your ticket(s) in advance visit www.baptheatre.com (£7 on the door)

I’ll be performing a poem;  I haven’t decided which one yet, I was thinking of doing my poem “I Need a MAN!” but it depends on the crowd! (See my previous post to watch me perform it at The B. Love Experience!)

See you tomorrow!

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Original Art Investment Opportunity!

Come to My Art Sale!  

Join me TOMORROW, Sunday 8th December at The Mella Centre, 73 Oxford Street W1 (Tottenham Court Road End) for my FUN-draising Art Sale!  Some of my original paintings which I used to illustrate my Self-help novel ‘Single, Spiritual…AND Sexual! and my Self-help bookHow to Get the Ring On Your Fingerare on offer; I am raising funds for the Marketing Campaign of my books, and my 3-month Writer’s Retreat in Ghana to do research for my next book!

My aim is to make my books BEST SELLERS; when I reach my target, the originals will inevitably go up in value, so these paintings are not just good to have on your wall, they’re also a good INVESTMENT!

Here’s a video I made about my art courtesy of BlackVisionsTV:

 

The paintings on sale are:

Black Butterfly 4′ x 5′ oil on canvas £3,000 o.n.o.

Black Butterfly has been used to illustrate the front cover of my Self-help novel.

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(stars and detail down her body are hand-applied diamentes)

Wings of an Eagle 4′ x 5′ oil on canvas £2,500 o.n.o.

Wings of an Eagle has been used to illustrate Year Seven of my novel.

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 (stars are hand-applied diamentes)

SPECIAL OFFER: Buy Black Butterfly and Wings of an Eagle together for £5,000! (o.n.o.)

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Self Love 24″ x 38″ oil on canvas £799 o.n.o

Illustrates Year Three of my novel and the cover of my CD ‘Seeds of Love’

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(N.B. The butterfly was stuck on and is not on the original painting)

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Black Orchid 38″ x 48″ oil on canvas £1,250 o.n.o

Illustrates Year Six of ‘Single, Spiritual…AND Sexual!’

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Love Bump 48″ x 38″ oil on canvas £1,250 o.n.o

Illustrates Year 11 of ‘Single, Spiritual…AND Sexual!’ and the front cover of ‘How to Get the Ring On Your Finger’

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(N.B. the rose is on right cushion only, the left one is Photoshop’d on!)

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Blue Lotus 48″ x 38″ oil on canvas £3,550 o.n.o

Illustrates Year Four of ‘Single, Spiritual…AND Sexual!’

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Fruitful Mind (Male)  48″ x 38″ oil on canvas £450 o.n.o

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Fruitful Mind (Female) 48″ x 38″ oil on canvas £550 o.n.o

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  *SPECIAL OFFER: Buy both together for only £800!

Watch the Youtube video for ‘Single, Spiritual…AND Sexual!’:

All paintings are signed and dated (some of these have been digitally enhanced for print). For more information about my paintings visit my Art Page

 If you are interested in buying an original call 07944 244 116 

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Come to my Art Sale!

Join me at the Mella Center, 73 Oxford Street W1 on Sunday 8th December 2-6pm for the Art Sale;

 

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N.B. The Mella Center is situated at the Tottenham Court Road end of Oxford Street, and is opposite the Halifax Bank, right next to some scaffolding (the shop is currently labelled ‘Live 4 Love’) go through the shop floor and down to the basement!

Please RSVP, call/text 07944 244 116 in advance to let me know which painting(s) you are interested in; viewing begins from 2pm, the highest offer on each painting will be gratefully accepted!

Payment can be made by credit or debit card using secure Paypal, and can even be made in 3 instalments, if necessary!  Don’t miss this great investment opportunity!

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Download the e-book or order the paperback of my Self-help novel ‘Single, Spiritual…AND Sexual’ from my Novel Page

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P.S. I’ve also published an e-book called ‘Nature’s Art’  which explains the Colour Therapy and Symbolism used in my paintings!  It’s available to download from Amazon for only £2.07, get yours TODAY!

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Seeds of Love Lyrics FREE – ONE DAY ONLY!

First of all I’d just like to say a big ‘THANK YOU!’ to all who tuned into my first show ‘Pure Poetry’ on Nubia House Radio yesterday!

I really had fun even though I made a few mistakes (inevitably!) but I had some really good feedback and even Minty (the station owner) said he was impressed!

Next week I’ll be interviewing Griot Chinyere Nwaubani, organiser of the Sesa Wo Suban Afrikan Family Storytelling Festival taking place on Saturday 22nd June 2013.  I’m really happy to be taking part in this festival, as I have used the Sesa Wo Suban Adinkra Symbol in my Self-help novel – as it’s a symbol of Transformation.

Griot Chinyere will be doing some storytelling to give you a feel of what to expect on the night (Yes, it will be from 9pm-6am!)

Emma Ako from Carpe Diem will also be joining me to tell us about her event ‘Poetry Meets Art’ which aims to help increase awareness of the minerals conflict in the Congo.

Don’t miss it!

If you haven’t downloaded all 13 poems (mp3’s) from my compilation ‘Seeds of Love’, they are still FREE to download (get them while they’re free as they will soon be for sale in iTunes!) – and feel free to ‘like‘, share and Become a Fan! 🙂

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I did offer their accompanying Book of Lyrics FREE to my listeners yesterday, but I’m putting the link here, as today is the LAST DAY that it’s FREE to download!

Book of Lyrics Front copyThe Book of Lyrics also contains my inspiration for writing each poem, and their complimentary artwork (where applicable).  Get it while it’s FREE!

P.S.  If you download it and you injoy reading it, please go back and leave a Customer Review on Amazon, that would be much appreciated!

Enjoy the rest of your week!

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New YouTube Video!

It is with great gratitude that I say a big “THANK YOU!” to BlackVisionsTV for coming down to the Art of Tottenham exhibition and filming this video, which is available to watch on their channel:

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Bring Back The Love Pt. 2!
I’m still buzzing from hosting last night’s event, it was fantastic!  4 drama sketches relating to Appreciation, Acceptance and Admiration were performed in front of a Guest Panel, with audience participation; the Panel and audience gave some really great feedback on the sketches performed, and it was filmed so I should be able to share some of the footage with you soon!  Apparently BAP (Black Arts Production Theatre) had feedback asking why I’m not on TV!  (Well I am now thanks to BlackVisionsTV!)

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I sold all the books I had, and unfortunately some people came to get my book but I’d run out!  I just want to let you all know that I don’t have a stock of books at home, they’re Print On Demand, so I only really print a few at a time, and when they’re gone, they’re gone!   However you CAN buy the paperback direct from Lulu, or if you want to get a signed copy from me, let me know in advance (they take 3-5 days to arrive) by emailing me at singlespiritualandsexual@gmail.com

All the poems from the CD ‘Seeds of Love’ which goes with my novel are available to download FREE for a LIMITED PERIOD ONLY (they will soon be on iTunes) from www.reverbnation.com/cezannepoetess – get them while they’re FREE!  And remember to ‘like’, share and become a FAN too! 🙂

And if you haven’t already, you can read Year One of my Self-help novel FREE at www.singlespiritualandsexual.com

Enjoy the wonderful weather this weekend!

Cezanne

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P.S. On Tuesday 4th June I will be on AFRICA4U RADIO SHOW at 6pm for a special one-off poetry show alongside Adisa Stephen-Ezeocha, Alan Charles, Chiedu Ifeozo and the show’s host Tony Tokunbo reading from his own poetry book ‘The Sound of Running Water’.  There will also be some African storytelling by University Lecturer Abimbola Gbemi Alao.  Tune in to  www.reading4u.co.uk on Tuesday 4th June at 6pm!

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Art of Tottenham Exhibition 8-22nd May

You are invited to come to the ‘Art of Tottenham’ exhibition at 639 High Road, Tottenham, London N17 (Lordship Lane) which ends on Wednesday 22nd May at 9pm.  Some of the paintings I’ve used to illustrate my Self-help novel ‘Single, Spiritual…AND Sexual!’  are on display, including ‘Black Butterfly’ which illustrates the front cover of the book.  I will also be selling framed prints of my artwork, so if you’ve been admiring my artwork online or in the book and have been thinking about getting one for your Self, now is the time!  If you are interested in ordering a framed print, call me on 07944 244 116 to place your order prior to coming down so I can have it ready, you can view them all on my Art Page

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You can also pick up a signed copy of my book for only £9.99; have you seen the YouTube video I made for it yet?  Watch it here: http://youtu.be/9p9-KRH2cNU  (feel free to comment, subscribe and share!)

Preview ‘Year One’ of ‘Single, Spiritual…AND Sexual’ FREE at Lulu and order the paperback, or download the ebooks from Amazon (if you’re an Amazon Prime Member you can ‘borrow’ the e-books FREE!)

FREE Downloads!

For a LIMITED PERIOD ONLY, I’ve made all the poems on the ‘Seeds of Love’ CD which compliments my novel FREE!  Order the paperback of ‘Single, Spiritual…AND Sexual!’ online from Lulu (only £9.99 + p&p) and then go here to download all the tracks!

Will YOU Own The ORIGINAL? Invest in Black Art!

3 of my original paintings on display are for sale:

‘Wings of an Eagle’ 4′ x 5′ oil on canvas

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‘Black Orchid’ 48″ x 38″ oil on canvas

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‘Love Bump’ 38″ x 48″ oil on canvas

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I haven’t set any prices as yet, so make me an offer I can’t refuse!  Bear in mind that all my artwork has been used to illustrate my Self-help novel ‘Single, Spiritual…AND Sexual!’ and are being put into print and they WILL go up in value!  To discuss, feel free to call me on 07944 244 116.

I will be at the exhibition on Tuesday 21st May from 1-5pm, and on Wednesday 22nd May from 1pm-9pm, so come down, view some great artwork from my Self and other Tottenham-based artists, buy the paperback of ‘Single, Spiritual…AND Sexual!’ for only £9.99 and I’ll sign it too!  (alternatively, order from Lulu), and download the ‘Seeds of Love’ CD FREE!

Last day celebrations!

On Wednesday 22nd May the exhibition will be open until 9pm, so if you haven’t been able to make it down during the day, come and join in the last day celebrations!

Leave a Review!

Have you read the paperback or e-books?  Leave a Review  on Lulu for the paperback or on Amazon for the ebooks!

Hope to see you at the exhibition!

Cezanne

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Year Seven Extract – FREE DOWNLOAD this weekend!

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Are you on the journey?  Join Suzanne on her 11-year quest for ‘the Truth!’

Extract from Year Seven: Love Attraction

Suzanne was in the habit of writing down her desires, as this seemed to solidify them somehow.  Sometimes she used her songs and poems to express her feelings and wishes.  She wanted to attract the man of her dreams, but she also wanted to help her single Black sisters to attract theirs too.  Every time she went out to perform, she always took note of the amount of sisters in the crowd who were out with their friends or alone – but without a man. Maybe he would turn up later that night when she got back home, or maybe she was just another sister without a man.  The amount of Single Black Women without a ‘decent black man’ inspired Suzanne to write a song/poem and dedicate it to them.  She would be performing it for the first time that Saturday, so she rehearsed all week in front of the mirror to get it right.

  When she arrived at the venue, once again she noted the amount of single sisters in the place, some who she knew personally from the poetry circuit.   She sat with a group of them and enjoyed watching their performances.  Soon it was her turn; as she began singing, she tried her best to emotionalise the words, which wasn’t difficult:

I’ve been on my own too long

And I’m tired of spending my nights alone

I’m looking for a love that’s true

Someone to call my very own.

 Lord can you help me please

To attract the man of my dreams

Tell me what I have to do

To attract a love that’s true

 Please…

 Oh Lord, show me the way

To find the perfect One for me

What steps must I take

To bring the man from my dreams into reality?

 (Inner Voice)

First, I must heal my Self from the emotional damage caused by past relationships

The hurt, the pain, the wounds that keep opening up again and again

Each time I’m reminded of a negative experience it starts a chain reaction;

I lash out, shout and scream, say words I don’t mean

And before I know it, I’m alone again!

 Please…

 Oh Lord, show me the way

What steps do I have to take

To find the perfect One for me

Who’ll give me the commitment that I seek?

 (Inner Voice)

I must learn to drop the emotional baggage I’ve been carrying around for years

Let go of all my insecurities and fears

Releasing bitterness, hurt and pain

Forgiving, so I can heal from within

And learn to love and trust again…

 Even though the poemsong was over six minutes long, Suzanne had memorized it so well, she made no mistakes.  It was like a teaching tool to help women prepare themselves for their soulmate.  It hadn’t so much been written by her – it more came through her.  She recited the last lines;

Now I trust and let go because I know that

DREAMS DO COME TRUE.

 As Suzanne left the stage to a resounding applause, a familiar figure approached her.

“You again.”

“Me again.”

They hadn’t seen each other in nearly two years.  He couldn’t believe how much she’d changed.

 “Damn, you look good enough to eat!” he exclaimed impulsively.

She smiled, thinking that all her efforts had paid off.

Suzanne had by now, gone from wearing the wigs and weaves, to wearing her hair natural.  It was more work and just as expensive to maintain, but somehow, it gave her a new sense of pride and Self-identity. For this occasion, she’d had it done in a Bespoke hairstyle; cornrow twists going up off her face, with glittering hair adornments to finish it off.

Her clothing style had changed, too.  She no longer wore man-made fibres against her skin, but stuck to natural cloths like cotton, wool, linen, hemp and silk.  Her clothing was comfortable, soft and flowing; she tended to avoid understated clothes, preferring prints with an ethnic feel, which made her look more daring and exciting in appearance. There was grace in her movements, reflecting her keen sense of harmony and refinement.

“She definitely seems to be going through some sort of transformation” thought Charles “– for the better”.

What Charles was seeing was her true natural inner beauty shining through.

 “Can I buy you a drink”? He asked, taking her by the elbow.

“That would be nice” she replied, while thinking “Why did he have to touch me?”  He knows what his touch does to me!”  It sent an electrical current right through her whole body.

As they stood by the bar talking, invisible sparks were flying everywhere.

They couldn’t really hold a proper conversation because of the noise, so Charles suggested they go somewhere quieter.  Suzanne recommended the lounge bar upstairs.  She left her books and CD’s with her sister Janice who was still promoting her Black History artefacts, saying she would be back soon.  Janice looked at Charles and said “I remember you!” and gave Suzanne an approving smirk.

As they sat on the comfortable leather sofas, a waiter handed them both menus.

“Would you like anything to eat?” Charles asked.

“No thanks, it’s too late for that” Suzanne responded “But I wouldn’t mind a cup of peppermint tea, if they have any”.

He looked through the menu, and then said “Yes they do, I think I’ll have one too”.

Charles signalled to the waiter to come back over, and ordered a small pot of peppermint tea.

“Ok I’m ready, fire away” Suzanne said, looking him straight in the eyes.

Looking back at her regretfully he held her gaze as he said “Suzanne, I’m really sorry for any hurt and pain I may have caused you”

May have?” Suzanne replied sarcastically.  “May have?” she repeated.

Sarcasm is the lowest form of communication, and it failed to help the situation.

Ignoring her remark, he continued; “…I know I did wrong Suzanne, but I’m just asking for another chance.  I know now that it’s you I want to spend the rest of my life with”

“What about your baby mother?” Suzanne quizzed.  “How would she feel about this new arrangement of yours?”

“I don’t want to talk about her too much or put her down in any way, but all I can say is it’s over.  I’m never going back.  It’s you I want” He repeated.  “I’ve missed you so much Suzanne, all the time I’ve been with her, I’ve been wishing it was you.  I thought I could make a life with my new family, but I was only lying to my Self.  As much as I love my daughter, I have to take my needs into consideration as well.  I don’t just want you Suzanne, I need you”

His words played with her heart strings, but she tried her best to stay in control.

“What about the mother of your child?” she asked.

“Look, we’d only known each other about six weeks and before I knew it, she was telling me she was pregnant.  I tried my best to do right by her, but it wasn’t long before I knew I’d made a big mistake.  But does that mean I have to suffer the rest of my life for it?  I’ll always be there for my daughter, but I’m not interested in being in a relationship with her mother anymore.  I want you.  I’m still madly in love with you Suzanne”

This was the first time Charles had told her he loved her of his own free will, not before, during or after sex, or with the influence of alcohol egging him on.

As she looked at him from across the table, he smiled sheepishly with that boyish grin, with a pleading look in his eyes.

“When did you break up with her?”she continued to question him.

“I moved out a few months ago.  She was making my life a living hell – I couldn’t do anything right”

“Well it’s your daughter I feel sorry for.  She’s the one who has to suffer in all this” Suzanne stated bluntly. “How old is she?”

“You’re right.  She’s only sixteen months old.  She’s adorable, but I will be there for her and have her as often as I possibly can” Charles claimed.

“Do you have a photo of her?”  Suzanne asked.

Charles brought out his mobile phone and showed Suzanne the picture on his screen-saver.

“Oh, she’s beautiful!” Suzanne exclaimed.

“How’s your relationship with her mother now?”

“Maria?  Not good.  But it hasn’t been good for months, even before Ebony was born. She seemed to switch on me the minute she got pregnant” Charles sulked.

Suzanne remembered how she had been when she was pregnant.  Those hormones had played havoc with her emotions; she remembered the time she ripped her son’s father’s jacket clean off his back.

“Are you sure it’s not just her hormones?” she asked in defence of the woman.

“What do I know?  All I know is that I’m not in love with her, I’m in love with you”.

As they sat staring at each other from across the table, Charles reached over for her hand.

She knew that if they got too close, touched skin-to-skin, she wouldn’t be able to control herself.  She withdrew her hand before he reached it.

He looked down at the table, looking defeated.

“Please Suzanne, give me a chance to make it up to you.  I’ll do anything to have you back in my life.  Just name it, and I’ll do it.”

This was too much for Suzanne to take in.  Getting up, she replied “This situation was not caused by me, and it’s not for me to try to fix it”

As she walked away, he rushed after her.

“How are you getting home?” he asked.

“My sister has a car”

“Let me drop you home – come on, that’s the least I can do”

Suzanne exploded. “The least you can do?  You go off and make a baby with another woman and then talk about the least you can do is give me a fucking ride home?”

Charles took her by the arm to slow her down.  She stopped, spun around and glared at him.  Trying again he pleaded; “It would give us a chance to talk some more.  Look Suzanne, we belong together but if you are too angry too see that…..I mean if you’re prepared to let your hurt and anger at my mistake keep us apart then I’ll have no choice but to walk away and we’ll spend the rest of our lives wondering what could have been. Or we can take this opportunity to examine what’s in our hearts. Let me drive you home and we can just…… talk”

She paused before replying “…Okay”.

By the time they arrived back downstairs, the event was almost over and Janice had already packed up the stand.

As they walked to the car, Charles tried to put his arm around her shoulder to protect her from the cold wind blowing, but she refused his gentlemanly gesture, pulling her coat tightly around her instead.

They drove in silence for the first five minutes, before Suzanne asked if he could put some music on.  As soon as he pressed the play button, one of the CD’s Suzanne had compiled for him some years ago began to play.  They looked at each other and smiled.  Memories flooded back to her.

“I have to admit, I’ve missed you too” Suzanne said reluctantly.

Charles reached over and took her hand.  He placed it on the gear stick of the car and put his hand over hers, so she could help him change gears, like they used to do.

Silent tears began to fall down her cheeks.  Looking out of the window, she wiped them away before he could notice.

As much as she wanted to be strong, she knew she was powerless to resist him.

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Download Year Seven FREE this weekend (Fri 8th to Sun 10th March)

If you haven’t read the previous Years, download Years Two to Six (You can read Year One FREE at www.singlespiritualandsexual.com)

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If you still prefer to turn the pages (and make notes on them!) order the paperback from Lulu.com – join me at one of my Book Signing Events and I’ll give you its complimentary poetry CD ‘Seeds of Love’ FREE!

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And to all the queens raising our sons and daughters,

HAPPY MOTHER’S DAY!

Cezanne ♥ (Artist/Poet/Author, Black Love Promoter)

P.S.  Read Reviews, hear me reading an extract from Year Two, and download a FREE mp3 of God’s Reply from Year One at: www.singlespiritualandsexual.com

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Touching the heart…through Art!

FREENESS!

I thought that might grab your attention  😉

But really, you can read ‘Year One’ of my Self-help novel ‘Single, Spiritual…AND Sexual!’ FREE, as well as hear me reading an extract from ‘Year Two’ at: www.singlespiritualandsexual.com (under ‘Book Extracts’)

Purchase the paperback book from Lulu , come to one of my monthly Book Signing Events and get its complimentary poetry CD ‘Seeds of Love’ FREE! (this is also your opportunity to discuss the topics raised in my book with like-minded people)

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On Thursday 7th March and Friday 8th March, Lulu are giving 20% discount off any order, so if you buy my book at the already reduced price of £9.99 (+ p&p) you’ll receive a further 20% discount! (Just enter the discount code: ‘SPARK’ at the checkout) so put your money where your mind is and get yours TODAY from www.lulu.com!

I hope to see you at my next Book Signing Event being held at the Caribbean Edge Exquisite in Bruce Grove, Tottenham, London N17 on Sunday 31st March!

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Order your ticket(s) for only £15  (under Book Signing Events) which includes a meal AND the ‘Seeds of Love’ CD (you can listen to all 13 poems there too)

Don’t miss this opportunity to ‘Meet the Author’, get your book signed, and discuss the topics raised in it with like-minded people!

Cezanne ♥ (Black Love Promoter)

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‘Art of Tottenham’ Exhibition

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I took part in a one-day exhibition organised by Rising Generations, where I had the opportunity to display 5 of my paintings for a day!

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I enjoyed showing off my work, especially ‘Blue Lotus’ which hadn’t been on display since I painted it in 2010!

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It was extremely cold that day, slight snow falling and all, and it was very quiet during the day, but it picked up in the evening!

My photographer friend Brian Quavar came down and took some photos of ‘Wings of an Eagle’, ‘Love Bump’ and ‘Blue Lotus’ so that I could start putting them into print, and they will all soon be available to order from my website: www.cezannesart.co.uk

My King Framed Print

I had a couple of framed prints on display, ‘My King’ and ‘Black Butterfly’ – I’ll be selling framed and mounted prints at any events I attend, visit my Events Page for more details!   (My King/My Queen is only £59.99 set in a bordered A2 frame, I’ve even stuck the gemstones on her crown and earrings!)

If you would like to place an order, email artisanimpression@gmail.com

Cezanne (Black Love Promoter)

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