“Learning to re-connect with and nurture our inner child is one of the best gifts we can give ourselves in adulthood” ~ Cezanne
Join me in the Gambia for 7 days of nurturing your Inner Child!
‘All children are artists, the problem is how to remain one when we grow up’ ~ Pablo Picasso
We were all naturally creative as children, but somewhere between childhood and adulthood some of us ‘lose it’.
Is your inner child crying out to be heard?
I was a blocked writer and artist for over 15 years; on this Retreat, I’ll take you through the same processes I went through to unblock, based on the book I credit with helping me to unblock, ‘The Artist’s Way’ by Julia Cameron. The workshops are playful, nurturing, and designed to coax your inner child from out of the dark recesses of your mind, so that you can reconnect with your natural creativity. You will return home with something you created, and the tools to keep your creative juices flowing!
All materials will be provided, and I will always be on hand to guide you through this process.
I will also be teaching the benefits of Colour Therapy more indepth (I do an introductory workshop on The Self Love Retreat). I healed myself from Seasonal Affective Disorder (a form of depression caused by lack of natural sunlight) with the colours in my paintings. You will return home with something you’ve created using colours that will help you on your own Self-healing journey!
Leading up to the Retreat, I’ll give you two easy exercises that will help prepare you; your Morning Pages, and your weekly ‘Artist’s Dates‘. These will help you begin the process of nurturing your inner child! They are based on the book that helped me to unblock, ‘The Artist’s Way’ by Julia Cameron.
The ‘Nurture Your Inner Child‘ Retreat will held at my newly built 6 bed Retreat Home in Gunjur, which is 10 mins walk to the beach.
The total cost of the ‘Nurture Your Inner Child’ Retreat is only £599 per person (based on two sharing) which includes:
Breakfast & Dinner
5 Self nurturing workshops
All materials, including paints/brushes
Artist’s Date to feed your inner child IMAGES!
(N.B. Flights must be booked separately). There are only 8 PLACES (max) available to ensure you receive individual attention, book early to avoid disappointment!
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Growing up, I had a natural ability to write and draw; my two favourite subjects at school were English Literature and Art. However, I never pursued a career in any of these areas because I lacked self confidence and didn’t believe in myself or my abilities.
As a child, I was constantly told I was worthless, good-for-nothing, didn’t deserve it (anything I wanted), and that I was ugly. These heterosuggestions went deep into my subconscious mind, and became the program I ran on as an adult. I subconsciousy believed anything I produced was also worthless, good for nothing, and ugly. 💭
I grew up with low self-esteem, lacked self-confidence, and didn’t believe in myself. I would screw up any piece of writing or drawings I did, because I thought they weren’t good enough – a reflection of how I felt about myself! 🤕
So instead of pursuing a career that utilized my natural God-given talents, I ended up doing Accounts, when maths was my worst subject at school! 🤦🏾♀️
By my mid twenties, I had stopped being creative altogether. This was the last picture I drew (using pastels) back in 1986:
Clearly you can see I was good at art, but my perception of myself was reflected in how I viewed my work. My boyfriend/lover/friend had asked me to do a portrait of his favourite singer, Alexandra O’Neal from the record sleeve; when he saw my creation, he threw the original on the floor!
Still, I remained a blocked writer and artist for over 20 years after that. My inner child was crying out to be heard, but I ignored her.
I was unfulfilled, and miserable in my job as an Accounts Clerk.
After the birth of my second ‘sun’ in 1995, I decided I wanted to do something that would work around them. I wanted to go back to being creative, but I didn’t know how. A book came into my life calld ‘The Artist’s Way’ by Julia Cameron, which helped me begin the process of unblocking.
This book literally saved my inner child’s life! I didn’t just read it, I did all the daily and weekly tasks (it’s a 12-week course). The first thing I was required to do was to start writing my Morning Pages, 3 A4 pages every morning of any thoughts that came to mind (it didn’t have to make sense). The second thing was to take my inner child on weekly ‘Artist Dates‘. This was fun!
Some parts of the process involved going deep into the recesses of my mind, to uncover where that critical voice in my head was coming from that kept saying “You? A great artist? LOL” or “You? A best-selling author? You could never amount to that!” . The exercises helped me get to the root cause of my insecurities, and to begin counter-attacking them with POSITIVE AFFIRMATIONS like “I am a brilliant and successful artist”, “I am a prolific writer”, “I have rich creative talents”, “I am confident and competent in my creative work”, “I am a channel for the Creator to create through”, in order to get my creative juices flowing again.
‘The Artist’s Way’ taught me how to nurture my inner child, and to give her the freedom she desired to create. As the adult, I had to learn how to step out of the way, and allow her to be free.
Before the end of the 12 week course, I was writing and painting freely!
The first painting I did when I unblocked as an artist in 2009 was of my inner child, and one of the first poems I wrote was called ‘My Artist Child’ (inspired by ‘The Artist’s Way’) which explains the inner struggle I went through to set my inner child free:
Cezanne (my artist) is a child.
I call to her, and she answers me
With a poem, a dance, and a squiggle-diddy!
She loves to be free, my artist
Free to explore her creativity
With no limitations, or boundaries
So what’s stopping her?
Yes ME, the adult,
Constrained in what I can see
Stuck in my blocks, and adult mentality;
“YOU CAN’T DO THAT!” I scold,
As she tries to break free;
“I want to paint!” she says.
“NO!” I reply,
(frightened of what she may tell of me,
as she paints away freely)
“I want to write!” she cries.
“No, NO!” I squeal,
(At the thought of my thoughts on paper,
she may reveal!)
“I want to dance!” she pleads.
“No, no, NO!” my senses scream
“At your age, start to….PRANCE??”
“Please, can I sing?” she begs…
She wants to paint!
She wants to write!
She wants to dance!
She wants to sing!
How can I deny my artist-child these things?
How can I refuse her the right
To be free to express her creativity?
So….I give her the paints, AND the time of day.
I give her the dance classes she’s always craved.
I allow her to write when her spirit takes
And to sing, yes to sing with the voice that God gave!
I take her out on our ‘Artist’s Dates’
And feed her IMAGES for her to relate
Back to her play-play-work-day…
Now my child, GO and CREATE!
As you can see, there was a real struggle going on between my adult self, filled with ego, self-consciousness, and learned restrictions, and my uninhibited, free-spirited inner child. Thank goodness, my inner child won! 😅
So when I started writing my novel (now re-titled Journey of a Sister) my job as the adult was simply to step out of the way and let her be free. I used the painting My Inner Child to illustrate the front cover of the e-book for Year Two, because there’s a part in there where Suzanne inspires Charles to awaken his inner child! (in the section ‘Lace Seduction’).
Cezanne’s mission is to ‘Spread Love through Creativity’
The thing I love about my inner child is her ability to write about adult topics with the uninhibited innocence of a child, and to express herself in a way that I (the adult) wouldn’t dare to! When I was writing ‘Journey of a Sister’ I kept hearing that critical voice inside my head saying “You can’t write that!”, but I just ignored it and allowed my inner child the freedom to write whatever she chose…so in 2009 I felt compelled to write ‘Part Two‘ to my poem:
My inner child is wild and free – she has no boundaries!
When I decided to set her free I KNEW it would cost me my privacy!
(and anyone who’s had anything to do with me
so if that’s you, I’m sorry.)
She sits in the seat of my subconscious mind observing all I’m doing
Then she turns my experiences into a song, story or poem!
Thanks to her, my life is an open book,
Go on, open it, take a look!
And she’s left me (the adult) to deal with all the DRAMA she creates
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Where Did the Name ‘Cezanne’ Come From?
Cezanne is my ‘spiritual’ name. What do I mean by that?
When I was around 14 years old, I was in the back of class one day at school, doodling on the back of my textbook (obviously bored!). As I was drawing randomly, the name ‘Cezanne’ appeared in the doodles! The name stuck in the back of my mind all the years I was a blocked writer and artist, and only came back to me when I had to name my inner child as part of the course in Julia Cameron’s book ‘The Artist’s Way‘.
I’ve now changed my name by Deed Poll, in the hope that eventually, my inner child will take over completely! Setting her free has enabled me to write and record over 30 poems, write 3 books (one is the Book of Lyrics to my award-winning poetry collection ‘Seeds of Love‘), painted 11 paintings, and I’m still creating, including building this website, writing my first speech, and developing workshops for my Retreats!
Join me on the ‘Nurture Your Inner Child’ Retreat!
Would you like me to take you through the same processes I went through to unblock as a writer and artist? Then join me for 7 days of work-play in the sun! This is essentially a 7-day holiday for both women and men, with 5 days of workshops thrown in (you can do as much or as little as you like!). All materials are included, as well as accommodation, daily meals, and 5 days of nurturing your inner child! You’ll return home with something you have created, and the tools to keep your creative juices flowing! As part of the course, I will also teach Colour Therapy (I healed myself from Seasonal Affective Disorder using the colours in my paintings!)
Visit my Art page to learn about the Colours & Symbolism in my paintings and to download them to your device so you can benefit from the Colour Therapy in them too!
Use the Contact Form below to register your interest in the Nurture Your Inner Child Retreat 2019 (monthly Feb to May) or email firstname.lastname@example.org
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Promoting LOVE through Creativity!
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‘Sometimes, in order to go forward, we have to go back’.
In Year Two of ‘Journey of a Sister’, the main character Suzanne learns all about her African ancestry, and the his-story of the religion she had been indoctrinated into. Learning about her rich history before slavery helps her develop positive Self and racial esteem. She begins to undo the indoctrination she had received around sex and money. Despite her current circumstances, Suzanne is happily moving towards her goals. She inspires Charles to awaken his inner child and start his art again!
Year Two is based on my own ‘her story’ of discovering that I was the descendant of an enslaved African, and that I had been totally disconnected from my roots. I had been brought up in a Christian household with the belief that the only way for me to have a relationship with my Creator was through a white Jesus. I had no culture, no Mother Tongue, no wealth from the resources of my Motherland, and no inheritance. I didn’t even have my original African name. Everything my ancestors owned had been stripped from them, and as a result, I was displaced, impoverished, lost and confused. Raised in a country whose economy had been built on the backs of my ancestors, yet not benefiting financially myself; the only people benefiting were the descendants of enslavers who had left an inheritance to their children. Yet I also discovered that I had a rich history before slavery! Year Two features two of my poems, here’s an extract with one of them:
Extract from Year Two: Who Am I?
Suzanne realized that she didn’t really have a sense of identity; was she African, Jamaican or British? Just because she was born in England didn’t make her English; she had never felt ‘at home’ there, and could never get used to the cold weather. Even if she wanted to claim Africa as her roots, which part was she from? It was such a large Continent, and she had learned that Africans were captured from all parts and taken to the West Coast of Ghana before being carried away on the slave ships. How was she going to find where she originated from?
Up to this point, her strongest identity claim was being ‘the righteousness of God in Christ Jesus’. She had no righteousness of her own – according to the bible, even her own righteousness was like ‘filthy rags’.
She had no name with which to trace her roots; she had inherited a slave master’s name. Africans put a great deal of effort into naming their children, even holding elaborate Naming Ceremonies, as they knew the spiritual effect it would have on the child in shaping the child’s destiny. Europeans knew the devastating effect stripping them of their name and replacing it with their own name would have on them.
She pledged that when she found out where she originated from, she would change her surname to a name from that place, in honour of her ancestors.
Greatly impacted by everything she was learning, Suzanne was moved to write a poem:
Who am I?
I am a remnant of my ancestors,
Torn from my Motherland
By the rape of slave traders.
Who am I?
I am a watered-down version of an African Queen;
My blood is diluted, so mixed, that it’s now in-between!
My skin is no longer its original color;
Rich, dark, like black gold;
The colour of…tar.
I have Royal Blood flowing through my veins,
For my ancestors were kings, queens, rulers,
Inventors, scientists, leaders…
(Track 5 on the ‘Seeds of Love’ CD)
She made a commitment that day to use her gift of writing poetry to help free her people from mental slavery.
Download Year Two, only 99p/$0.99:
If you haven’t read Year One yet, start the journey by reading an extract from Year One FREE ← just click on the link! If you’re an Amazon Prime member, you can borrow Years One and Two from Amazon’s lending library!
Start YOUR journey of Self-discovery – read what others thought about the First Edition on the Books page (and I’ve made it even better!)
Over the next six weeks, each ‘Year’ from Three to Eleven will be available to download FREEevery Wednesday between 1-2pm!
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