Today is World Mental Health Day; the clocks are going back this weekend, which means shorter days, and even less sunlight! The short days and grey weather can have an adverse effect on the mental health of people of colour, because the pigment in our skin (known as MELANIN) needs the UV rays of the sun to function properly. When we don’t get enough sunlight we can lack energy, feel lethargic, unmotivated, and suffer from a form of depression known as SAD (Seasonal Affective Disorder), which is caused by a lack of natural sunlight.
We NEED the sun!
Symptoms of SAD can include:
A persistent low mood
Loss of interest or pleasure in normal everyday activities
Feelings of despair, guilt and worthlessness
Feeling lethargic (lacking in energy) and sleepy during the day
Going to bed much earlier than normal yet finding it hard to get up in the morning
Comfort eating and gaining weight
The main treatments offered by the NHS are:
Getting as much natural sunlight as possible, exercising regularly and managing your stress levels
Light Therapy – where a special lamp called a light box is used to simulate exposure to sunlight
talking therapies, such cognitive behavioural therapy (CBT) or counselling
antidepressant medication such as Selective Serotonin Reuptake Inhibitors (SSRIs)
Colour Therapy Can Help!
Many of us are mis-diagnosed and prescribed SSRIs (antidepressants), when what we really need is a good dose of sun! I healed myself from SAD using COLOUR THERAPY, which isn’t even mentioned on the NHS website!
In the winter of 2009 I intuitively painted some bright, colourful paintings, and after putting them up around the house, I noticed I wasn’t getting my usual symptoms of wanting to stay in bed with the covers over my head, and not wanting to look outside at the grey sky and buildings, and generally feeling ‘under the weather’. The symptoms vanished! You can download my Art and save them to your phone or print them and put them up so you can benefit from the Colour Therapy in them too!
Come Top Up Your Melanin in the Gambia!
I’m now setting up a Retreat Home in the Gambia where I’ll be spending my winters, and you can join me there for The Self Love Retreat, an affordable holiday where you can enjoy Self nurturing workshops, cultural day trips, and a Pamper Day at the luxurious Coco Ocean Hotel and Spa!
This holiday will give you the opportunity to top up your melanin to see you through the rest of the winter, and to reconnect with your Motherland. I’ll be teaching Colour Therapy as one of the workshops, and you’ll return home with something you’ve created that you can refer to whenever you need a pick-me-up, click on the flyer above ☝🏾for details!
Heal Yourself in More Ways than One as You Read…
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Click on the flyer above to read Year One FREE! If you’re in the UK and you’re free this Sunday, join me for my last event before I return to the Gambia!
As you may know, I’m in the process of setting up a Retreat Home in the Gambia for our healing Retreats. It’s important to have a safe space for us to heal because some of the methods we will be using are ‘unconventional’. That is, some of the plant medicines we will be using to help us heal have been BANNED by the medical establishment, 1) because they can’t make money from a plant, and 2) because these plants are our short-cut to healing on a deep psychological level. For instance, Iboga is a plant from Africa that has been made illegal, yet the medical establishment have made a chemical drug from it called Ibogaine, which is used to cure addictions.
I initially began my self healing journey using Positive Affirmations, Meditation, changing my food intake to a more plant based diet, and spending more time in nature. But after 15+ years, I reached a point where I didn’t know what else to do, yet I was still not fully healed from my psychological trauma. So I asked Spirit “What now??”
This is when I was introduced to plant medicines; first psilocybe (magic) mushrooms, then cannabis oil. I’m now on the road to complete recovery, working my way up to Iboga, ‘the father of all plants’, which is known to clear all trauma buried deep in the subconscious. I feel that plants such as these are our fast-track to repairing our DNA.
When I took mushrooms for the first time, I had a deep insperience which took me through my ancestry before slavery (royalty). The message I received was that my my enslaved ancestors endured such pain, that it altered their DNA structure. Can you imagine being whipped until the skin on your back is raw? Or being repeatedly raped by different men? Or seeing your children, wife, or mother abused and being helpless to do anything about it? As a child, I was beaten mercilessly, and I now see the link between how my mother was programmed, and plantation life. She’s not to blame, she was simply enacting her genetic coding. However, when you’re being brutally beaten, your mind may split, or dis-associate in order to deal with the unbearable pain. The cruel whippings were not just a physical violation, they were aimed at breaking our ancestors down mentally, in order to reprogram their minds to how they wanted them to think.
If you’re the descendant of an enslaved African (especially if you’re Jamaican) you may be carrying genetic memory of past trauma in your DNA. If you truly wish to be healed, join me on this plant medicine journey!
If you look on Youtube for videos about ‘magic’ mushrooms, Ayahuasca, cannabis oil, Iboga etc, you’ll notice its mainly Europeans who have been going on these kind of Retreats. I’m learning about these plant medicines with the aim of bringing them to the Gambia to incorporate them on my Retreats.
PMP – Plant Medicine Pusher
Last week, while in a trance state from inhaling distilled cannabis oil, the letters ‘PMP‘ flashed before my eyes in big bold black capitals, like a logo – I asked what it meant, and I got the message ‘Plant Medicine Pusher‘. I burst out laughing! Yes, I’m a P(i)MP! I also saw the message; “Plant medicines are my friends, and I need to get to know them better”
My job (which I accept willingly) is to introduce plant medicines to my community. I actually think they work better on us because of our Melanin (which is also in plants).
HELP ME HELP YOU!
I’m still fundraising for the container I sent to the Gambia for our new Retreat Home. Even though most of the furniture was donated, it cost me nearly £1,500 to ship them, plus I still have to pay another £635 at the other end, for them to clear customs and be delivered to the house! I managed to raise £650 in contributions for the container (£500 from my own sister), and used the money I collected for the November and December Retreats to make up the balance. I’m not taking on any stress, so I’m appealing to my commUNITY to help raise the £8,000 needed to fully get the Retreat Home ready! (this includes a year’s rent in advance for the Retreat Home):
Our Retreat Home in the Gambia with lots of space round the back to grow things!
In return for your contribution I have some great PERKS on offer!
Contribute £15 to receive a LIMITED EDITION personally signed copy of my Self-help novel ‘Journey of a Sister’ with free p&p >>Read Year One FREE! <<
Contribute £50 to get £100 OFF any one of my Retreats (excluding The L.OV.E. Retreatin February).
Contribute £100 to receive a FREE WEEK at the Retreat Home (outside of Retreat Dates) in 2019! Make your contribution then contact me using the form below, to arrange your free holiday!
Or enter any amount you choose, all contributions greatly accepted, whether great or small! If you’re thinking you’d like to come on a Retreat between January to May next year, pay a deposit today to secure your place (I only have 8 people max on each retreat).
With thanks and many blessings that your (money) SEED will return a great harvest!
In your service,
Book Signing & Discussion Event – Sunday 14th Oct 6-8pm
Join me at Hub & Culture, 89 Peckham High Street, London SE15 this Sunday 14th October from 6pm to discuss the topics raised in my Self-help novel! Haven’t read it yet? Download Year One FREE on the 11th and 12th October:
If you enjoyed the free read, order your signed paperback using any of the Paypal links above, and collect it on Sunday! A3 Prints of my artwork featured in the book will also be available to purchase, THIS IS MY LAST UK EVENT THIS YEAR hope to see you there! (Limited seating).
▪A hand mirror
▪A drinking glass
▪A rose quartz crystal (optional)
▪A notebook/journal/recording device
If you don’t have a hand mirror, simply look in your wall mirror when you get up (it’s just more effective looking in the mirror when you’re still in your half-asleep state).
The rose quartz is also optional; I’ve added it because it’s known for helping to develop unconditional love for self and others, universal love, and for helping restore trust and harmony in relationships. It purifies and opens the heart, encouraging a deep inner healing and feelings of peace. You can get a small stone for a few pounds/dollars, and you can even get them in the shape of a love heart! (not necessary though). The 30 Day Self Love Challenge is for women and men; if you’re a woman, you can also get another rose quartz crystal to wear inside your bra, next to your heart. If you’re a man, you can wear it in your inside pocket, as close to your heart as possible.
Each day we will be keeping a record of our Journey to Self Love, so treat your Self to a small notebook specially for this Challenge, you can even pick up a nice one at the pound shop! If you have time, decorate it and make it special – you can even download and print my painting Self Loveand stick it on the front of your journal! (or any of my other art).
Why are we doing the 30 Day Self❤Love Challenge?
Many of us were raised with a Self Love Deficit, because we didn’t experience love growing up. This has affected the way we treat ourselves, and the way we relate to others. The 30 Day Self❤Love Challenge will give us the opportunity to address our inner relationship issues, and to develop Unconditional Love for ourselves, using two simple daily tasks, a daily Self Love Affirmation, and a weekly Self Love treat!
Task 1: In front of a mirror, look your Self in the eyes and say to yourself “I LOVE YOU!” (It might feel uncomfortable at first, but the more you do it, the better you will feel). Repeat this a few times to your Self, morning and night.
Task 2: Pour some water into a glass. Spend a minute focusing on the water and putting your love intention into it. Say “I LOVE YOU” into the water before drinking it. For added potency, include a rose quartz crystal at the bottom of your glass. (This is based on Dr Maasaru Emoto’s water experiment showing the effect words and intent have on water, and that we’re made up of 70% water).
The Affirmation for Day One will be:
“I LOVE MYSELF UNCONDITIONALLY”
(Repeat it as often as possible throughout your day).
By completing the 30 Day Self❤Love Challenge, we will not only be increasing our own love frequency, but helping to raise the love frequency of the whole planet! If you’re often fearful, this challenge will help with that too!
There’s something about groups of people doing things together; not only does it hold us accountable to ensure we complete the Challenge, but our collective energies are much more powerful than when we do it individually, and the more people doing this Challenge, the more Universal Love will expand, be part of the movement!
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Join me on my new talk show ‘Black Sex & Spirituality’🔥on UJR Talk Radio, with my co-host Tony!
Have we lost our way when it comes to LOVE and INTIMACY?
Are we settling for relationships based on the physical rather than the spiritual?
Is there a link between sex and spirituality?
Join us every Friday night between 9-11pm GMT for the next 5 weeks for ‘Big People Talk’ to discuss how we can improve and upgrade our relationships, and find that ideal partner. What should you be looking for? If you’re already in a relationship, how can you take it to the next level?
Tonight’s hot topic: “I Need a MAN!” (Why am I still single?) 🤷🏾♀️
Single sisters, what challenges are you facing with finding ‘The One’?
What are you looking for in a relationship?
Have you set the bar too high? 🙋🏿♂️
Are you happy with settling for the booty call, or have you chosen celibacy while you wait? If you’re in a relationship, is he 100% committed? Are you seeking marriage 💍or are you happy to just ‘go with the flow’?
Brothers, we need you to call or text in your challenges when dealing with your sisters!
This is not a slagging match, we genuinely want to help heal our relationships in a healthy and open way 🙏🏾🖤
Join the live debate, send us a message on Facebook, or text in your questions or opinions! 🤳🏿 (If you missed it listen to the replay here)
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NEXT WEEK: “What TYPE of Woman Do I Need?”
Next Friday (31st August) the tables will be turned; BROTHERS, you’ll have YOUR opportunity to share what YOU need in a relationship, and to explain why you might be finding it difficult to find or settle down with a sister. Tony will again be speaking on behalf of the brothers, and will explain why some of them are choosing outside of their race, or to go to Africa to marry. What are the major differences between Black women raised in Western society, compared to African (or other) women? Ladies, you will be required to 👂🏾and respond, don’t miss it!
When I returned from my first trip to the Gambia in March, I did a Presentation to encourage my people to buy land together to build a commUNITY village; this was based upon a premonition I’d had in 2015, that in 5 years time (2020) my people would be fleeing England and America; I thought “they’re going to need somewhere to run to!”
The opportunity arose for me to facilitate The Self Love Retreat in the Gambia between December 2017 and March 2018. In between Retreats, I came across some beautiful land right by the sea, which fulfilled my vision of having a Retreat Home overlooking the sea, and a commUNITY Village. Here’s part of my talk:
Unfortunately, the day after my Presentation I was told that the land I had my heart set on can only be purchased on a 99 year lease! This is okay for the Retreat Home I plan to build, but for the Village, we need something we can pass down to future generations.
So I returned to the Gambia in May, and after a 3 day fast (no food just water), the perfect piece of land came to me 200 x 200 metres, just outside the government-owned TDA (Tourist Development Area), within walking distance of the sea and a newly built 6-bed Retreat Home which I was able to rent! This is a huge step towards my work to help us heal from the psychological effects of slavery and colonialism!
“You cannot heal in the same place that made you sick”
I wanted to create a safe space for us to heal, away from western ideologies. Read on to learn why…
During the process of “breaking them in”, our enslaved ancestors were subjected to intense physical and psychological trauma, and we, their descendants, have been carrying this trauma in our our genetic coding, passed down from one generation to the next. To fully comprehend the dysfunction within our community today, we need to get to the ROOT CAUSE of our issues, that is, we need to look at the CAUSE, not the effect, and the cause is buried deep in our subconscious minds.
In my Presentation, I explained that while the government has no problem with people drinking and smoking themselves to death (not to mention the amount of people addicted to white sugar, and the diseases it causes), they have BANNED medicinal plants that grow out of the ground, which are crucial to our healing.
I was in the Gambia when The Black Panther came out, and couldn’t wait to see it when I got back. The parts that got my interest the most, were when they gave T’Challa and Killmonger plant medicines and buried them in order for them to visit their ancestors. The burying was symbolic of them going deep into their subconscious.
And in the film ‘Get Out’, the ‘sunken place’ is his subconscious mind.
Last year, I had reached a point in my Self-healing journey were I didn’t know what else to do to heal myself. I asked my ancestors ‘What now?’
Not long after, I met a woman who facilitated my first experience with cannabis oil; after we fried some plantain in it, I slipped into a ‘trance’ state for around 8-10 hours, during which time I was receiving a spiritual download, which seemed to be affecting my past, present and future. From my personal studies, I discovered that time isn’t linear, it’s all happening at the same time.
On another occasion, I took ‘magic’ mushrooms, which took me on a deep inner journey through my ancestry. They showed me how the trauma my ancestors had suffered altered their DNA structure. The message I got from the ‘trip’ was ‘DNA REPAIR’.
When WE heal, we’re not only healing ourselves, we’re healing our ancestors, and future generations.
Our ancestral mothers are on hand to help us with this process; some of the methods are unconventional; most of these plant medicines have been made illegal, but I walk in the footsteps of my ancestors who have gone before me, who have paved the way for the work I’m called to do now. These are plants Mother Nature has provided for our healing. Are you truly ready to heal?
My own Self-healing journey has been like peeling away onion layers; every time I unpeeled one layer (e.g. religion) there was something else underneath I had to deal with. The Positive Affirmations worked for some things, but not others. For instance, they worked really well to help me build confidence and self esteem, which helped me to unblock as a writer and artist, but there were other blocks that I just couldn’t seem to shift. I asked my Higher Self to reveal what I needed, which is when I came to the realization that some of the blocks were buried so deep in my subconscious, I couldn’t get to them on a conscious level; I had to go into an altered state of consciousness to reach them.
Meditation helped to quiet my mind and control my negative thinking patterns, which also helped me heal from depression. I focused on thinking positively and keeping myself in a ‘positive state of bliss’. Yet none of these things seemed to get to the ROOT CAUSE of my issues.
If we don’t heal from the trauma of our past, it will keep coming back to haunt our present and future.
“As I heal myself, I heal others”
If you have suffered childhood trauma, abuse, ancestral trauma, and know that you have been psychologically affected, this is for you. My work is about helping us heal so that we can move on to form better relationships with our Self, our partner, to rebuild our family structures, and our commUNITY.
I wrote this poem the morning after watching the film ‘Sankofa’, and I dedicated it to all who are still suffering the psychological effects of the enslavement of our ancestors, handed down to us genetically through our DNA:
If you’d like to come to the Gambia with your partner, join me on The Self Love Retreat 8-15 February 2019!
You can also join me on The Self Love Retreat 8-15 November or3-10 December or the Let’s Build a Village Retreat20-29November or 17-24 December.
I’m sending a container to the Gambia in mid September to furnish our new Retreat Home for the first Retreats taking place in November and December.
If you’d like to come on any of the Retreats, or would like to be considered for a subsidized place, send me a message:
In my Presentation, I also showed some photos of the dome-shaped round homes we’re thinking of building in the village, and Galactic Clyde (a builder and carpenter who studies sacred geometry) explained the spiritual benefits of living in such homes instead of square ones:
As the land is smaller on this second plot of land, there are now only 7 plots available for £6,000 each (25 x 25 metres). All who are interested in being part of this village project MUST attend one of the Let’s Build a Village Retreats in November or December. You’ll have the opportunity to see the land, meet potential neighbours, and plan how our village will be laid out.
If this village isn’t right for you, I hope it inspires you to set up your own village, or to work with other groups who are also building villages.
It takes a VILLAGE to raise a child, let’s do this for ourselves, our ancestors, and future generations!
Just before I left the Gambia on the 12th March, some magical things began happening!
I was there to facilitate The Self Love Retreat, but the venues that I used weren’t 100% suitable. For years, I’ve imagined having my own Retreat Home overlooking the sea, and now that I was actually doing the Retreats, I realized I needed a Retreat Home of my own, where we could feel more comfortable.
While in the Gambia, I came across some land that was perfect for both the Retreat Home AND a Village; in 2015, I had a premonition that in 5 years time (2020), my people would be FLEEING the UK and USA, and that they would need somewhere to run TO, hence why we need to be building VILLAGES. My vision was beginning to manifest in real life!
On the way back from seeing the land, we passed a small Guest House, and a woman was sitting on the porch. She called out “Are you Cezanne?”
Bear in mind that we were in the middle of the bush; this woman recognized me from when she used to live in the UK, and we became acquainted. Because she and her husband hold high esteem within the village, and because one of her employees happens to be part of the clan who own the land, they are now helping me secure the land, and getting government approval to build on it! When I first saw the land, I was told that it was ‘TDA land’, meaning the government has reserved it as a Tourist Development Area. But in my spirit, I knew that it was land reserved for US returnees!
(Just beyond the trees in the distance is the beach, where the Retreat Home will be built, the Village will be on this part of the land)
It is with help from our ancestors that I have now been allocated 500 x 200 metres of this land, right by the sea, and I believe that when we ‘show and tell’ that we have made good use of this land, we will be able to get more! If my premonition is correct, we will need more than this piece that I’ve been allocated; you can see what’s happening to our youth, our men, our families, and our culture from living in Western society. If we truly wish to heal, we need to remove ourselves from the environment – YOU CANNOT CLEAN DISHES IN DIRTY WATER!
On Saturday 12th May between 2-4pm I’m holding an event in Tottenham, North London, to share my vision for Kai Ci Kurbi Healing Village. If you’ve been thinking about leaving the UK but don’t have a ‘Get Out’ plan, come and see if this might be for you. Not everyone will fit into the model for this particular village, which is why we need to be building VILLAGES. I’m building my tribe, you should be too! If you would like to attend, email me at firstname.lastname@example.org
If you are unable to attend, but would like to know more, still send me an email; the event will be filmed and put on Youtube, I’ll send you the link when it’s up!
Another magical thing that happened just before I left, was being taken to see this amazing tree in Senegal:
I lit a candle and poured libation to my ancestors, and thanked them for guidance and protection while I go through this process. When I came out from inside the tree, all the women from the village came to pray for me, it was POW-HER-FULL!
They gave me some of the soil from around the tree, and told me what to do with it. I know without a shadow of a doubt that I’m being guided to get this land to build our Retreat Home and Kai Ci Kurbi Healing Village. ‘Kai Ci Kurbi’ means ‘COME HOME’. Are you ready?
Join us on the next Self Love Retreat 25 May to 3rd June, or our mixed Retreat 21-30 November to see whether you will fit into Kai Ci Kurbi Healing Village – families welcome!
According to the Law of Nature, ‘you reap what you sow’. You can’t plant an apple seed and expect to harvest an orange.
If you want more LOVE, plant Seeds of Love; start by filling your Self with Love, so you will radiate love and become a LOVE MAGNET. Then spread the love you feel inside to others.
If you’re suffering from a Self Love Deficit (like I was) spend time alone, look at yourself in the mirror (make eye contact with yourself) and say “I LOVE YOU”. Do this a few times. Secondly, Pour water in a glass and speak into it “I LOVE YOU”, then drink it. We do this on The Self Love Retreat, you can also do it as a 30 Day Self Love Challenge and see what happens! (Let me know!)
If you want better/stronger RELATIONSHIPS do kind things for others; practice the principles ‘do unto others as you would have them to unto you’, and ‘love your neighbour as you love yourself‘. This includes:
Not gossiping about others behind their back
Helping others when you can
If you want better HEALTH, plant a health seed today; write a PLAN of how you intend to get fitter/healthier. This might include:
Eating healthier meals/eliminating junk food
Adding more fruits, veg, seeds and food provided by Mother Nature to your diet
Drinking at least a litre of water a day
Eliminating white sugar, flour and dairy products
Exercising more, e.g. doing stretches when you wake up in the morning, or walking for at least 20 minutes a day.
Getting adequate sleep
If you want more MONEY, then plant a money seed, and make sure you plant it in FERTILE SOIL!
Save 10% of your income (give to yourself first)
Give to good causes
Help others in need when you can
These are all good seeds to plant, which will blossom in the future. Again, the Law of Nature shows us that when you plant a seed today, it has to go through various stages of germination, budding, and growing before it reaches full bloom, or harvest. The Laws of Nature never fail! If you want more MONEY, today I’m giving you the opportunity to plant a money seed into FERTILE SOIL: Make a contribution to The Self Love Retreat Fund so I can offer subsidized places on my Retreats! This week, I teamed up with Dawn Mbaatay (Organization) to build a VILLAGE; they are building Phase One, Numbi Village, and we will be building Phase Two, which will include a Retreat Home for those needing to come for Self-healing, read my Vision Statement for > Kai Ci Kurbi Healing Village < (Kai Ci Kurbi means ‘Come Home‘).
As we were on our way to the beach from purchasing the land for Numbi Village, we came across this deserted government-owned land.
If you know me at all, I’m a visionary, and I make things happen! I’ve had this photo on my Vision Board for the past couple of years:
This is my vision of the view from our Retreat Home!
The man in blue, Ousman, says he owns the land, but it is ‘TDA’ which means the government has said it cannot be developed. However, if we build a water-hole, and approach the government with plans for how we plan to develop the land, they will give some to us. We are going to approach the government based on the fact that we are repatriates, and we need the land to build our village. But we need to pool our resources together to buy the land, and develop it!
My Vision Statement is being drawn up into a professional Proposal to be submitted to the Gambian government, for how we plan to develop the land. I live by the motto “Whatever the MIND can CONCEIVE, it can ACHIEVE – I can CREATE whatever I can IMAGINE!”
Are you part of my tribe?
I’m seeking just 50 people who align with my vision, to build Phase 2, Kai Ci Kurbi Village; this will involve investing to purchase the land (initially £150,000), and building the village. At the moment, the land is reserved by the government, but we were told by Ousman that if we build a waterhole and show the government that we can build, they will give us some of the land. If you would like to be part of this, send me a message: email@example.com
In the meantime, I’m planning on renting a Villa in the Gambia for two years to run the Retreats from, which will enable me to offer subsidized places on my retreats. People will also be able to rent it for their own holidays, which will go towards the building project. Make a contribution to The Self Love Retreat Fund – if you prefer to contribute using Paypal, use the email: firstname.lastname@example.org
“Every day is a SEED to your future Happiness, Success, and Well-being; plant the seeds TODAY for the FUTURE you want to see BLOSSOM!” ~ Cezanne
Watch my video-poem:
The Laws of Nature never fail! Depending on the seed you plant, will determine the harvest you receive – are you planting a FLOWER or a TREE?
I’m seeking to ‘build my tribe‘, if you align with my vision, Let’s Build a Village! Read my Vision Statement, and make a contribution to the Fund – don’t miss out! The names of all those who have contributed to the Fund will go on a list, to be able to receive subsidized rates for future Retreats.
If you’ve read my ARTicle ‘Use Your Subconscious Mind to Create the Life YOU Choose!‘ you would know that you can CREATE whatever you can IMAGINE, and that there’s a PROCESS.
For years, I’ve cultivated the idea of being able to work anywhere in the world, and now I’m doing it; I’ve been in the Gambia since November, facilitating The Self Love Retreat, writing, and also doing book editing jobs.
“Whatever the MIND can CONCEIVE, it can ACHIEVE – you can CREATE whatever you can IMAGINE!”
For years, I’ve also cultivated the idea (seed) of building a VILLAGE – I didn’t know HOW, I just put it out there. My thinking was that for our commUNITY to truly heal, we need to get back to the way our ancestors lived, in real communities. We grew and shared food with each other, helped each other raise our children (it takes a village to raise a child), the women were the backbone of the commUNITY, and our elders were given high status, as they had the wisdom and experience to pass down to the next generation. Children spent time with their grandparents, and benefited from their wisdom. Men and women knew their roles, and stayed within them; this created HARMONY.
During January I spent a lot of time on my own, in the Silence, tuning IN (it was during this time that I wrote my speech ‘Use Your Subconscious Mind to Create the Life YOU Choose!). Shortly after, I met brother Musa, who, with his wife Nailah and their commUNITY, are already in the process of building NumbiHealing Village in the Gambia. From speaking with him, I realized that our visions line up, and so I have now aligned myself with what they are doing, to build Phase 2. Last week, we had a monumental gathering of Gambians, African-Americans, and African-Caribbeans to see how we could work TOGETHER to build a VILLAGE! In attendance was a professional builder, surveyor, electrician and an architect, as well as locals, and people ready to invest, such as myself.
Brother Ra, an African-American who lived in Ghana for 10 years, has been in the Gambia for 7 months; his background is in hospitality, tourism and education. Having been involved in setting up similar projects in Ghana, and learning from their mistakes, he’s now looking to do something similar in the Gambia. He is a great asset to our project, be a part of it too!
Numbi Village is already fully funded and patronized. I’m looking for 50 like-minded people to work with me in building Phase 2, Kai Ci Kurbi Village (Kai Ci Kurbi means ‘come home’ in Wollof, one of the main languages spoken in the Gambia). Read my >> Vision Statement for Kai Ci Kurbi Healing Village <<
Those who were left on the continent did not escape the evils of colonialism, and in my opinion, have suffered just as much as we have psychologically, spiritually, and financially, while others benefit from the wealth of our Motherland. By pooling our resources TOGETHER, we can rebuild our infrastructures, and develop a do-for-self attitude, instead of thinking that we need to rely on others to help us heal and rebuild.
Those of us who are the descendants of enslaved Africans, who were stripped of our culture, names, language and spirituality, are slowly finding our way ‘back home’, which I now realize is a state of being. To facilitate this return to our roots, being in the sun, spending time in nature, eating food provided by Mother Nature, and spending time ‘going within’ is vital. This is why I’ve organised another Retreat for this November, this time for both women and men, where you’ll be able to see for yourself what we’re doing here, learn more about the vision, and get involved in Phase 2 of the ‘Build a Village’ project, ‘Kai Ci Kurbi’. It’s time to COME HOME! I predicted around 3 years ago that in 5 years time, our people are going to have to flee from the UK and USA, and that they’re going to need somewhere to go. This was the basis upon which I wanted to build a village, so that my people had somewhere to run TO.
Are you ‘coming home’?
Join me in the Gambia November 21-30 for a 10-day Retreat where you will be able to see the first building project, and get involved in Phase 2! The pilot project, Numbi Village is patronized by around 25 people. We are looking for 50 people to patronize Phase 2, Kai Ci Kurbi Village (more about this in my next post), to invest in the building project and be ready to move into the Village, (or to provide accommodation for renting.) The Retreat in November costs just £899 which includes transfers to/from the airport, 9 nights accommodation with breakfast, a visit to Numbi Village building project, a gathering to plan Phase 2 including locals, 3 Self-nurturing workshops with my Self (in place of The Self Love Retreat, optional). Khensu I-Em Hotep, author of the forthcoming book ‘Spirit-Osis (Spiritual Disorder), the ROOT CAUSE of All Modern Dis-eases‘, and founder of The Melanin Clinic will also be attending the Retreat, sharing important information to help you Self-heal. We will also have an Evening of Reasoning to discuss the topics raised in my Self-help novel ‘Journey of a Sister‘ which you’ll get FREE when you book to join us on the Retreat! (It will help you ‘innerstand’ my thinking behind rebuilding our commUNITY). An overnight trip to Senegal on safari, and a day trip to Kunta Kinte Island are optional extras. If you’re seriously thinking about getting involved in Phase 2, book your place early, as there are only 10 places on this trip; easy monthly payment plans available – pay a £100 deposit to secure your place, singles and couples welcome:
While we are in the building process, I plan to rent a Retreat home, which will be used to run the Retreats from, this would mean that you only have to pay for your flights and spending money! We can rent a 5 bedroom house for around £5,000 per year; make a contribution to The Self Love Retreat Fund to enable me to offer subsidized places on each Retreat; The Law of Nature states that if want to reap a harvest, you must sow a seed of that kind, so I’m giving you the opportunity to sow your money seed into fertile soil!
I’m back in London temporarily between March and May…
There’s a saying: “Whatever the mind can conceive, it can achieve.”
If you can think up an idea, you also have the capacity to achieve it. I’m in the process of re-creating my life how I choose it to be, and there’s nothing stopping you from doing the same – other than the seeds that are planted in your subconscious mind.
Now there’s another level to this: your subconscious mind makes sure that you function exactly according to your programming. It makes sure that everything you SAY and DO is consistent with your ‘master program’. What IS your master program? Remember I said that you were programmed between the ages of 0-7? Anything that goes into your subconscious mind during this imprint period becomes the program you run on for the rest of your life – unless you change it, and changing it isn’t that easy; it’s like un-installing all the programs from a computer, then re-installing new ones. Well I wish it was as simple as that! This isn’t stuff I’m just regurgitating from a book, it’s information I had to learn in order to re-program my own mind, because I kept sabotaging my success. For instance, when I was 19 I met this beautiful soul. We were the same age and he was the perfect boyfriend. I’d never had anyone show me such unconditional love, I couldn’t do anything wrong in his eyes. He was the physical MANifestation of God’s Love for me. When we were both 21, he proposed. But as soon as I got the engagement ring on my finger, I started to sabotage the relationship. I cheated on him and we broke up. I ended up having my children with men who didn’t truly love me, while he’s been married over 20 years. I even had another chance at true love as a single mother with two young suns, but my subconscious programming wouldn’t allow me to believe I was worthy or deserving of such love. On another occasion, in 2009 I received a lump sum of over £20,000, and within 3 months, I’d spent it all and was worse off than before I received the money! How could this be possible? My subconscious programming wouldn’t allow me to hold on to the money – I was programmed to be poor, a failure, and to not accept anything good that came my way, because I wasn’t worthy or deserving of it.
Your subconscious programming is the key to your SUCCESS or FAILURE. If you’ve been programmed for success from an early age, great! But if you’ve been programmed for failure, you must change your subconscious programming. This is where ‘The Secret‘ and other Law of Attraction material failed many of us, because they didn’t go into our subconscious programming.
To get to the ROOT CAUSE of your issues, you have to dig deep into your subconscious mind. No-one can re-program your mind for you. Well, there are NLP practitioners and hypnotists, but personally, I’m a bit dubious about subjecting my subconscious mind to someone else’s suggestions. So I’ve accumulated hundreds of Positive Affirmations relating to health, relationships, business, family, finances etc which I can share with you to help you re-program your subconscious mind.
Now I’ll let you into a little secret of my own, which I shared in the book ‘How to Get the Ring On Your Finger’, and which I also take people through on my Retreats: When you’ve developed your list of Positive Affirmations (which I can help you with), record them onto your smartphone using the voice recorder. You can play some meditation music in the background if you like, to help relax your mind. Play them to yourself when you’re in a relaxed state, like when you’re about to go to sleep, or waking up. Be sure to turn off any distractions before you start. If you’re using your phone, put it on flight mode to avoid any interruptions. I’ll get you started with a few affirmations from my own collection, repeat them to your Self slowly, deliberately, and repeatedly:
“I am whole, perfect, strong, powerful, loving, harmonious and happy”
“I am in perfect health; mind, spirit and body”
“I am mentally, emotionally, spiritually, physically and financially FREE!”
“I am the master of all my thoughts and feelings”
“All my thoughts are rooted in love”
“I am consciously uprooting negative thoughts and replacing them with positive thoughts”
“I am planting Seeds of Love in the Garden of my mind”
“I am operating on the highest frequency, which is love”
“I am re-programming my subconscious mind for GOOD”
Hmmmm….how do you feel now?
This is just the beginning of your journey to Self-actualization; my Self-help novel ‘Journey of a Sister‘ will help you continue the journey, order your paperback:
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The Law of Nature states that you reap what you sow; you can’t plant an apple seed and expect to reap oranges! If you want more LOVE, plant Seeds of Love; if you want better health, plant seeds of health, if you want better relationships, plant health seeds; if you want more MONEY, plant money seeds, so I’m giving you the opportunity to plant a money seed into fertile soil – make a contribution to The Self Love Retreat Fund, which will enable me to offer subsidized places to two women on each Retreat.
Lastly, listen to “I AM What I WILL to Be!” where I’ve compiled a list of Positive Affirmations into one uplifting poem!
Continue ‘the journey’ with me, and if you’ve enjoyed reading these ARTicles, share them with your friends from Part One
P.S. I’m available to share this series as a Presentation (15-20 minutes) To book me, use the Contact Form below. I’m also available for interviews, or to host a Book Signing & Discussion Event at your book club, singles group, women’s group, church, or any commUNITY event, just send me a message:
Ok, let’s use another metaphor; think of your subconscious mind as a computer; a computer runs on a PROGRAM, or on various programs. Until it’s programmed, it can do nothing. A young child’s mind is like an un-programmed computer.
While I was going through the process of figuring out my mind in order to get it to work properly, I discovered that children go through what’s known as the ‘imprint period’, between the ages of 0-7. Whatever they’re told repeatedly during this period becomes their subconscious programming. This subconscious programming is very difficult to change after the imprint period. That’s why Frederick Douglas said “It’s much easier to raise strong children, than to mend broken adults”, and why the bible says “Train up a child in the way it should go, and when it is old, it will not depart from it”. These are two examples of how deep this programming goes.
Now what if you were programmed for failure, like I was?
My programming at home was ‘You’re ugly, you’re worthless, you’re good-for-nothing, you don’t deserve it (whatever I wanted), and ‘not good enough’ (anything that I did)’. Then on top of that I went to church every week where I was programmed to beLIEve I was born in sin, was a was a poor, wretched sinner, was unworthy, and that I needed to be washed white as snow by a white savior in order to feel good about myself. I’m not saying this to name or shame anyone, I’m simply sharing what I found when I dug deep into my subconscious mind, to get to the ROOT CAUSE of my issues. So by the time I was in my early twenties, I had low self-esteem, didn’t believe in myself or my God-given talents, was a blocked writer and artist, suffered from severe bouts of depression, had mental breakdowns, and was even suicidal; I didn’t think my life was worth living. Obviously I didn’t kill myself, but I thought about it enough times!
After the birth of my second sun, I knew I had to fix up; it wasn’t just my life at stake anymore, I had two little people to think about as well. So I started the process of Self-healing. This was back in the 90’s. At the time, Anthony Robbins was all the rage on the Self-development scene; I read his books, listened to his CD’s, and even attended one of his seminars. I also read lots of other Self-development books like ‘The Magic of Thinking Big’ by David J. Schwartz, ‘As a Man Thinketh’ by James Allen, ‘Feel the Fear and Do it Anyway’ by Susan Jeffers, and ‘The Artist’s Way’ by Julia Cameron. They all began to show me the creative power of my mind. But it was in 2007 when ‘The Secret‘ had exploded on the scene, that I really began to take control of my thoughts. At the time I was homeless; I’d sent my 3 suns to live with their fathers, and was at my lowest point ever. Yet this was my biggest opportunity to change my life for GOOD. I started learning how to meditate, and as a result, I unblocked as a writer and artist, painted 11 paintings, published three books, and wrote and recorded over 30 poems, all of which were creative expressions of what I was learning at the time – the creative power of my mind. But something else extraordinary began to happen; I began to access my super-conscious mind.
What is your super-conscious mind, and how do you access it?
I would say that your super-conscious mind is the part of you that’s connected to your Source. You can only access your super-conscious mind through your sub-conscious mind. Think of it like this:
Your conscious mind is on ground level, your sub-conscious mind is underground, and your super-conscious mind is way up in the skies…. What does this remind you of? You’re right, a tick! (Maybe Nike knows something we don’t – well, we do now!) I didn’t learn this from anywhere, it came to me while I was writing this ARTicle, I was like, WOW! But where did this idea come from? My super-conscious mind. I have a tendency to auto-write, which means, I’m not really thinking about what I’m writing – I’m not consciously making it up, I simply allow it to come through me; much like how this ARTicle was written (It was originally meant to be a speech). I also wrote 46,000 words of my Self-help novel ‘Journey of a Sister’ that way, and they formed the most beautiful story-line! I didn’t sit down and construct the beginning, middle and end, like they teach you to do in Creative Writing classes, I let the story unfold by itself. These are examples of how I use my super-conscious mind. So in order to access your super-conscious mind, you need to go down into your sub-conscious mind, which means your conscious mind needs to be put to rest. This is the purpose of meditation, or relaxation. If your mind is constantly on the go, you won’t be able to access your super-conscious mind. If you allow yourself to be distracted by the tv, radio, phone calls, internet etc, you won’t be able to access your super-conscious mind. Let me give you another example: One day I was lying on the sofa in a state of deep relaxation. I wasn’t meditating, I was listening to one of my favourite indie groups, Fertile Ground. As I listened to their track (also called ‘Fertile Ground’) with my eyes closed, I was drifting in between sleep and consciousness – when all of a sudden this image just flashed in my mind:
It was only for a split second, but it was as if it left an impression on my mind, because I was able to get up and draw all the details. Now, I know this image didn’t come from ME, because I wasn’t even able to relate to it at first! It took around 3 months for me to get around to painting it, because I found her big belly a bit off-putting; I certainly wasn’t feeling broody, and I’m not keen on the idea of a ‘white wedding’ either. Yet ‘Love Bump‘ now illustrates Year 11 of ‘Journey of a Sister‘!
I didn’t think up the whole composition, so where did it come from? I had accessed the Universal Mind (where all ideas reside) through my super-conscious mind, because my conscious mind was laid to rest. I was drifting in and out of sleep, so my sub-conscious mind was dominant, and somehow, I had connected with my super-conscious (probably with the aid of the music I was listening to).
Now the title of this blog series is ‘Use Your Subconscious Mind to Create the Life YOU Choose’. I had set an intention long before doing my paintings, writing my books, or recording my poetry, to buy my house with cash. Once I set the intention, I began to be in-spired and to attract everything I needed to help me reach my goal. It didn’t happen overnight…I’ve been at this for over 15 years.
Yes, there’s a process.
So let’s get back to the metaphor of the mind being a garden; there are different types of seeds you can plant, some take longer to blossom and bloom than others – the process doesn’t happen overnight – sometimes I wondered if it even really worked at all! But each time I questioned the process, I was reminded that I didn’t plant a flower, I’d planted a TREE.
Most people would have given up by now, but what else could I do? Go and get a 9-5 job? That would never help me reach my goal! Go back to uni and get a degree in creative writing or art? I’ve always dropped out of classes because they stifled my free-spirited way of creating.
I just had to trust the process….
In the last part of this series, I’m going to share with you how I re-program my subconscious mind for success, and how you can more easily do the same, click here to read it!
Continue the journey!
I’ve shared everything I’ve discovered about the power of our mind in my Self-help novel ‘Journey of a Sister‘, order yours today! (or get one for a friend, they make great gifts!)
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Plant your MONEY Seed – I Am Fertile Soil!
The Law of Nature says you reap what you sow! You can’t plant an apple seed and expect oranges! If you want more money, you have to plant a money seed, this is your opportunity to plant in FERTILE SOIL, your contribution will help me be able to offer subsidized places on The Self Love Retreat, plant your seed into The Self Love Retreat Fund – happy blossoming!
Join me on The Self Love Retreat (women only) or the Nurture Your Inner Child Retreat (mixed) in November 2018 where I’ll be taking you through some of the process I used to develop confidence and self-esteem, to unlock my creative potential, and to discover my destiny! Go here for details