“Learning to re-connect with and nurture our inner child is one of the best gifts we can give ourselves in adulthood” ~ Cezanne
Join me in the Gambia for 7 days of nurturing your Inner Child!
‘All children are artists, the problem is how to remain one when we grow up’ ~ Pablo Picasso
We were all naturally creative as children, but somewhere between childhood and adulthood some of us ‘lose it’.
Is your inner child crying out to be heard?
I was a blocked writer and artist for over 15 years; on this Retreat, I’ll take you through the same processes I went through to unblock, based on the book I credit with helping me to unblock, ‘The Artist’s Way’ by Julia Cameron. The workshops are playful, nurturing, and designed to coax your inner child from out of the dark recesses of your mind, so that you can reconnect with your natural creativity. You will return home with something you created, and the tools to keep your creative juices flowing!
All materials will be provided, and I will always be on hand to guide you through this process.
I will also be teaching the benefits of Colour Therapy more indepth (I do an introductory workshop on The Self Love Retreat). I healed myself from Seasonal Affective Disorder (a form of depression caused by lack of natural sunlight) with the colours in my paintings. You will return home with something you’ve created using colours that will help you on your own Self-healing journey!
Leading up to the Retreat, I’ll give you two easy exercises that will help prepare you; your Morning Pages, and your weekly ‘Artist’s Dates‘. These will help you begin the process of nurturing your inner child! They are based on the book that helped me to unblock, ‘The Artist’s Way’ by Julia Cameron.
The ‘Nurture Your Inner Child‘ Retreat will held at my newly built 6 bed Retreat Home in Gunjur, which is 10 mins walk to the beach.
The total cost of the ‘Nurture Your Inner Child’ Retreat is only £599 per person (based on two sharing) which includes:
Breakfast & Dinner
5 Self nurturing workshops
All materials, including paints/brushes
Artist’s Date to feed your inner child IMAGES!
(N.B. Flights must be booked separately). There are only 8 PLACES (max) available to ensure you receive individual attention, book early to avoid disappointment!
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Ok, let’s use another metaphor; think of your subconscious mind as a computer; a computer runs on a PROGRAM, or on various programs. Until it’s programmed, it can do nothing. A young child’s mind is like an un-programmed computer.
While I was going through the process of figuring out my mind in order to get it to work properly, I discovered that children go through what’s known as the ‘imprint period’, between the ages of 0-7. Whatever they’re told repeatedly during this period becomes their subconscious programming. This subconscious programming is very difficult to change after the imprint period. That’s why Frederick Douglas said “It’s much easier to raise strong children, than to mend broken adults”, and why the bible says “Train up a child in the way it should go, and when it is old, it will not depart from it”. These are two examples of how deep this programming goes.
Now what if you were programmed for failure, like I was?
My programming at home was ‘You’re ugly, you’re worthless, you’re good-for-nothing, you don’t deserve it (whatever I wanted), and ‘not good enough’ (anything that I did)’. Then on top of that I went to church every week where I was programmed to beLIEve I was born in sin, was a was a poor, wretched sinner, was unworthy, and that I needed to be washed white as snow by a white savior in order to feel good about myself. I’m not saying this to name or shame anyone, I’m simply sharing what I found when I dug deep into my subconscious mind, to get to the ROOT CAUSE of my issues. So by the time I was in my early twenties, I had low self-esteem, didn’t believe in myself or my God-given talents, was a blocked writer and artist, suffered from severe bouts of depression, had mental breakdowns, and was even suicidal; I didn’t think my life was worth living. Obviously I didn’t kill myself, but I thought about it enough times!
After the birth of my second sun, I knew I had to fix up; it wasn’t just my life at stake anymore, I had two little people to think about as well. So I started the process of Self-healing. This was back in the 90’s. At the time, Anthony Robbins was all the rage on the Self-development scene; I read his books, listened to his CD’s, and even attended one of his seminars. I also read lots of other Self-development books like ‘The Magic of Thinking Big’ by David J. Schwartz, ‘As a Man Thinketh’ by James Allen, ‘Feel the Fear and Do it Anyway’ by Susan Jeffers, and ‘The Artist’s Way’ by Julia Cameron. They all began to show me the creative power of my mind. But it was in 2007 when ‘The Secret‘ had exploded on the scene, that I really began to take control of my thoughts. At the time I was homeless; I’d sent my 3 suns to live with their fathers, and was at my lowest point ever. Yet this was my biggest opportunity to change my life for GOOD. I started learning how to meditate, and as a result, I unblocked as a writer and artist, painted 11 paintings, published three books, and wrote and recorded over 30 poems, all of which were creative expressions of what I was learning at the time – the creative power of my mind. But something else extraordinary began to happen; I began to access my super-conscious mind.
What is your super-conscious mind, and how do you access it?
I would say that your super-conscious mind is the part of you that’s connected to your Source. You can only access your super-conscious mind through your sub-conscious mind. Think of it like this:
Your conscious mind is on ground level, your sub-conscious mind is underground, and your super-conscious mind is way up in the skies…. What does this remind you of? You’re right, a tick! (Maybe Nike knows something we don’t – well, we do now!) I didn’t learn this from anywhere, it came to me while I was writing this ARTicle, I was like, WOW! But where did this idea come from? My super-conscious mind. I have a tendency to auto-write, which means, I’m not really thinking about what I’m writing – I’m not consciously making it up, I simply allow it to come through me; much like how this ARTicle was written (It was originally meant to be a speech). I also wrote 46,000 words of my Self-help novel ‘Journey of a Sister’ that way, and they formed the most beautiful story-line! I didn’t sit down and construct the beginning, middle and end, like they teach you to do in Creative Writing classes, I let the story unfold by itself. These are examples of how I use my super-conscious mind. So in order to access your super-conscious mind, you need to go down into your sub-conscious mind, which means your conscious mind needs to be put to rest. This is the purpose of meditation, or relaxation. If your mind is constantly on the go, you won’t be able to access your super-conscious mind. If you allow yourself to be distracted by the tv, radio, phone calls, internet etc, you won’t be able to access your super-conscious mind. Let me give you another example: One day I was lying on the sofa in a state of deep relaxation. I wasn’t meditating, I was listening to one of my favourite indie groups, Fertile Ground. As I listened to their track (also called ‘Fertile Ground’) with my eyes closed, I was drifting in between sleep and consciousness – when all of a sudden this image just flashed in my mind:
It was only for a split second, but it was as if it left an impression on my mind, because I was able to get up and draw all the details. Now, I know this image didn’t come from ME, because I wasn’t even able to relate to it at first! It took around 3 months for me to get around to painting it, because I found her big belly a bit off-putting; I certainly wasn’t feeling broody, and I’m not keen on the idea of a ‘white wedding’ either. Yet ‘Love Bump‘ now illustrates Year 11 of ‘Journey of a Sister‘!
I didn’t think up the whole composition, so where did it come from? I had accessed the Universal Mind (where all ideas reside) through my super-conscious mind, because my conscious mind was laid to rest. I was drifting in and out of sleep, so my sub-conscious mind was dominant, and somehow, I had connected with my super-conscious (probably with the aid of the music I was listening to).
Now the title of this blog series is ‘Use Your Subconscious Mind to Create the Life YOU Choose’. I had set an intention long before doing my paintings, writing my books, or recording my poetry, to buy my house with cash. Once I set the intention, I began to be in-spired and to attract everything I needed to help me reach my goal. It didn’t happen overnight…I’ve been at this for over 15 years.
Yes, there’s a process.
So let’s get back to the metaphor of the mind being a garden; there are different types of seeds you can plant, some take longer to blossom and bloom than others – the process doesn’t happen overnight – sometimes I wondered if it even really worked at all! But each time I questioned the process, I was reminded that I didn’t plant a flower, I’d planted a TREE.
Most people would have given up by now, but what else could I do? Go and get a 9-5 job? That would never help me reach my goal! Go back to uni and get a degree in creative writing or art? I’ve always dropped out of classes because they stifled my free-spirited way of creating.
I just had to trust the process….
In the last part of this series, I’m going to share with you how I re-program my subconscious mind for success, and how you can more easily do the same, click here to read it!
Continue the journey!
I’ve shared everything I’ve discovered about the power of our mind in my Self-help novel ‘Journey of a Sister‘, order yours today! (or get one for a friend, they make great gifts!)
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Plant your MONEY Seed – I Am Fertile Soil!
The Law of Nature says you reap what you sow! You can’t plant an apple seed and expect oranges! If you want more money, you have to plant a money seed, this is your opportunity to plant in FERTILE SOIL, your contribution will help me be able to offer subsidized places on The Self Love Retreat, plant your seed into The Self Love Retreat Fund – happy blossoming!
Join me on The Self Love Retreat (women only) or the Nurture Your Inner Child Retreat (mixed) in November 2018 where I’ll be taking you through some of the process I used to develop confidence and self-esteem, to unlock my creative potential, and to discover my destiny! Go here for details
This is why it’s so important that you guard your subconscious mind, in fact the job of your conscious mind is to guard your subconscious mind. See, your subconscious mind is like a young child; it doesn’t think or reason for itself, it simply accepts any information given to it from your conscious mind, the (adult) gardener as facts. You can either plant your own seeds, or you can allow other people to plant seeds in your mind for you (this is generally what most people do). Your conscious mind takes IN-formation through what you see and what you hear, which determine the seeds that you plant. If this IN-formation is good, you’re going to feel good and plant positive thought-seeds. If the IN-formation’s not so good, you’re going to feel bad and plant negative thought-weeds in your subconscious mind. Now your emotions are the water which causes your thought-seeds to grow at a much faster rate. This is the easiest way I can explain this process, so let me repeat it again; your emotions water your thought-seeds and make them grow that much quicker. So for instance, if you allow your mind to be manipulated by the media, the news, and social media, your emotions will be all over the place. One minute you’ll be reading a meme that makes you think “Oh, that’s so beautiful, life is wonderful, the universe is for me, I can do anything!” and you feel positive, optimistic, and loving. Then the next minute you read or watch something that makes you think “Oh my god, how can this be happening in the world? That’s so wrong! Life is against me, I’m going to march to change it!” and you feel angry, frustrated, even depressed. So there you go; you’ve just planted two different thought-seeds in your subconscious mind; one positive, and one negative – just like your own garden; you plant a flower, and a weed will spring up right alongside it. That’s what I love about Mother Nature, she’s the greatest teacher; if you want to know anything about life, just look at nature! So as I was saying, you can plant seeds in your own mind, or you can allow others to plant the seeds for you. That’s why I stopped watching the news over 15 years ago – it just made me feel depressed! I spend very little time on social media because I just don’t know what’s going to pop up! I’m very careful about what I allow into my subconscious mind.
I can’t wait to get onto the role of the super-conscious mind, but first I want to make sure you understand – or innerstand – the roles of the conscious and sub-conscious minds.
So let me explain it again; your mind is the GARDEN, and your thoughts are the SEEDS. Your conscious mind is the gardener, and your subconscious mind is the FERTILE SOIL into which the seeds are planted. I first learnt this metaphor from the book ‘Think and Grow Rich’ by Napoleon Hill. I’ve been thinking about being rich for a very long time – I had to, in order to change my religious programming of being a poor, wretched sinner. Why do I want to be rich? So I can reach my full potential, and help others reach their full potential too; I want to be able to travel the world, and see all the beauty of Mother Nature; I want my three ‘suns’ to be able to travel too, so they can realize that there’s more to life than working a 9-5 job to pay bills. I want to be able to buy my house with cash, and I want to be able to inspire others to live their dreams too. So what seeds are you planting in your subconscious mind? All thoughts are either rooted in LOVE or FEAR. Those are the only two places that they can come from. The root of all hateful thoughts is fear, so fear is the opposite of love, not hate.
If you look at my painting ‘Self Love‘, you’ll see that her thoughts are rooted in LOVE:
Her mind is the garden, and it’s growing beautiful flowers – not a weed in sight! You can’t see the root of her thoughts, because they’re buried underground, in her subconscious. But you can see the results of her subconscious thoughts, the beautiful flowers.
So how do you know what your subconscious thoughts are? Now this is where it begins to get interesting (if it wasn’t already!)…
In Part 3, I’ll show you how to get to the ROOT CAUSE of any issues you may be facing, and how you can begin the process of transforming your life for GOOD! Click here to read it!
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Have you ever heard the saying that we only use 5% or 10% maximum of our brain power? Do you believe it? Well it’s not true, it’s that consciously we only use up to 10% – the rest is the domain of our sub-conscious mind.
So how did I, Cezanne, a simple Artist, Poetess and Author come to learn about the power of our subconscious mind?
I stumbled upon this information because I had to figure out what was going on in my OWN mind. I mean, I was multi-talented, but was failing at everything I put my hands to; I just seemed to keep sabotaging my success in my career, relationships, family, money – my whole life was a mess! So I needed to study the mind in order to fix mine, and I had no idea that it would take me on such a beautiful journey, which I’m going to take YOU on now…
So let me start by explaining what the sub-conscious mind is, and how it relates to the conscious mind, and the super-conscious mind. Are you ready? Okay, use your imagination to picture an iceberg…there are two parts to this iceberg; the smaller part is above sea level; however the majority of the iceberg is underwater. The part you can see above water represents your conscious mind, and the majority of the iceberg which is underwater represents your sub-conscious mind. The word sub relates to being ‘under’, like submerged, submarine and sub-conscious. Therefore your sub-conscious is the part of your mind that is ‘under’ – it’s unseen. Your conscious mind is on the surface, that’s the part of your mind that you and everyone else relates to. But your subconscious mind is the bigger part of the iceberg – the other 90%. See?
Another metaphor I like to use when referring to the subconscious mind is of it being underground; your thoughts are the seeds, your conscious mind is the gardener planting the seeds, and your subconscious mind is the fertile soil that the seeds are planted into. My painting ‘Black Orchid’ illustrates this perfectly:
The black background represents the dark soil of the subconscious mind. Her thought-seeds are being planted into the fertile soil, which then goes through various stages of germination and budding, until eventually it reaches full bloom. She looks happy, so she must be planting positive thought-seeds in the garden of her mind. The affirmation for this painting is “I am blossoming!” which also means “I am prospering!”
Now here’s the catch; whether your thoughts are POSITIVE or NEGATIVE, they still go through this same process. So are you planting positive thought-seeds, or negative thought-weeds in the garden of your mind?
You can choose whether to grow flowers, or to grow weeds, or like most gardens, they can both grow side by side. Your job as the gardener is to consciously uproot negative thought-weeds and replace them with positive thought-seeds, in order to keep the garden of your mind well cultivated. Because whatever’s growing in your subconscious mind is going to blossom at some point, for all around you to see…
Watch my video-poem ‘Fertile Soil‘ to get a better ‘inner-standing’ of this process, which I wrote and recorded in 2009 when I was learning how to uproot my negative thought-weeds and replace them with positive thought-seeds:
In Part Two, I’ll explain why it’s important to guard your subconscious mind, and how to guard your subconscious mind, click here to read it!
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My first Self Love Retreat ended last Saturday, and I’m now thinking about how I can make it even better! Firstly, the three ladies who joined me commented that it went far too quickly; I personally arrived two weeks ahead of the Retreat in order to unwind and de-stress, and while I had intended for us to have plenty of time to do that, we were trying to cram so much into the week!
We started off with a Pamper Day at the Kairaba Hotel in Kotu, where we had a full body massage, facial, manicure and pedicure.
I purposefully kept the numbers for the first Retreat small because The Healthy Ways Guest House (where we were staying with Mama Naasira and Dr Joe Bledsoe) only holds up to 6 people. Their Spicy Tasty Vegan Cuisine meals played a big part in the healing aspect of the Retreat.
The aim of The Self Love Retreat is to nurture your Self from the INSIDE, OUT. The Pamper Day was for our outer self, while the Self-nurturing workshops were for our inner Self. The first workshop was entitled “Who Am I?” which questioned whether we are the things we do, what we have, or what we project to the outside world. By the end of the workshop, we had developed personalized Positive Affirmations to help re-define ourselves, and speak it into being. In Part Two, ‘Who I AM!’ (the following day), we recorded the affirmations to music. This is now a tool we can use to play just before we go to sleep, to help re-program our subconscious mind. (It’s our subconscious programming that we’re running on most of the time, not our conscious thoughts).
“The Loving Me workshop gave me a lot of food for thought for reflection” ~ Deanne
I’ve been working with Positive Affirmations for about 15 years, which has brought me from having a ‘Self Love Deficit’ with very low self-esteem, lacking self-confidence, and being a blocked writer and artist for over 20 years, to writing and performing poetry, writing books, painting, and now organizing the The Self Love Retreat. I’m simply sharing some of the techniques that have helped me raised my levels of confidence and Self-esteem, helped me unblock as a writer and artist, and to push myself out of my comfort zone to achieve more. The day before the Retreat has due to start I was writing my journal and the first thing I wrote was “Who am I to organize The Self Love Retreat? What do I know about Self Love?” This was my critical voice talking, and my old programming of not being ‘good enough’ was trying to creep back in! I had to silence it with Positive Affirmations about Who I Am. In the past, I would have succumbed to those voices, and crawled back into the dark cavity in the corner of my mind. But no, I’m here to make a difference, and in doing so, help others to transform their own lives too!
In another workshop, I shared some research conducted by Dr Masaru Emoto, about the effect our thoughts and words have on water, and because we are made up of 70% water, how pow-HER-full our words really are:
We then stuck “I LOVE YOU” onto a glass of water, and focused our thoughts and intentions into the water, before drinking it – try it! We also looked into a mirror and said “I LOVE YOU” to ourselves. This can feel awkward at first, but the more you do it, the easier it will feel.
We also wrote Love Letters (or poems) to our Self based on the Affirmations we developed, and used them to make our Self a card, which we can now refer back to whenever we need a pick-me-up:
When you fill your Self with Love, you can then give of your overflow, and radiate the love you feel for your Self – you will then attract that love back to your Self!
Self Love 30 Day Challenge!
Do these daily rituals to develop Self Love, and see what happens:
Close your eyes and go deep within (or look in the mirror) and say repeatedly “I love You!”
Pour water in a cup, and say “I love you” into the water before drinking it
If you did the 30 Day Challenge, email me your results: firstname.lastname@example.org
Aside from the 5 Self-nurturing workshops, we also enjoyed some Gambian nightlife, and went clubbing two of the nights! I’m not a clubbing person, but I loved the vibe and the Afrobeats!
I had these dresses made especially for the Colour Therapy workshop, which was also meant to incorporate dance, but we ran out of time! I explained how different colours affect the mood and emotions, and how wearing colourful clothes can make you (and others) FEEL. Try it! Incorporating more colour in your life especially during the dark, winter months will help lift your mood and emotions. (For more information on how I healed myself from Seasonal Affective Disorder using Colour Therapy, visit my Artpage).
We didn’t spend enough time on the beach, but we enjoyed early-morning yoga:
I also organized a Day Trip to Kunta Kinte Island, which took us about 3 hours to get to, including two river crossings! We were taken to the original place Kunta Kinte lived (not where they take tourists). On the long journey there, we had to take a ferry and a small boat. Someone had sent me a photo of a boat owned by a sister named Aminatta, encouraging us to use her (in the yellow skirt), but when we got to the island and I found her, the boat was out of action because it needed repairs to the value of around £150:
I told her I would help raise the money and get it to her as quickly as possible, you can send her a gift towards her boat repair using my Gofundme (put ‘BOAT’ as a reference) and I’ll make sure she gets it ( we’ve raised £45 so far).
“I had an amazing time on The Self Love Retreat – I recommend to everyone! I feel enlightened, refreshed, healthier and positive. I’ve learned many techniques to benefit me going forward. Met so many great people who I intend to keep in contact with. We made so many memories, I really wanted to stay longer! So glad I went and Cezanne is the hostess with the mostest, so inspirational, love her! I will defo do another retreat with you. I loved Gambia too, will go back”
Based on the feedback I received, I’ve decided to extend The Self Love Retreat in November to 10Days so you can relax and unwind for the first 3 days before the workshops start! The cost for the The Self Love Retreat is just £899 (Flights must be booked separately). If you can only come for 7 days, the price of accommodation will be deducted.
We will be staying at Ocean Villa Heights, a lovely hotel in Bufurt with swimming pool, internet, restaurant, and spa facilities, and it’s just a few minutes walk to the beach! To book, go HERE (or send me an email to email@example.com pay by bank transfer)
Support a Sista!
I set up a Gofundmecampaign in order to be able to offer subsidized places on the Retreat, if you’re unable to attend yourself, but would like to help your sisters on their Self-healing journey, please make a contribution to the Fund!
If you would like to be considered for a place, 1) make a donation to the fund, 2) email me: firstname.lastname@example.org explaining why you need it.
More Retreat dates will be added when destinations have been chosen (I’m also looking at Grenada, Jamaica, or Dominica)
Singles & Couples Welcome!
Whether you’re single, or would like to come with your partner, The Self Love Retreatis for YOU! The techniques will help you in your own personal development, which will no doubt impact your relationship. If you have any questions, or would like to book, email me: email@example.com
I’ve also organized the Nurture Your Inner Child Retreat in November, where I will take you through the same processes I went through to unblock as a writer and artist, all materials will be provided! If you’re interested in joining me on any of these Retreats, email me: firstname.lastname@example.org
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‘The Black Butterfly Effect’ is a process of transforming your MIND, in order to transform your LIFE!
When I painted ‘Black Butterfly’ in 2009, I had just started learning how to meditate in order to control my negative thinking patterns (I was in a deep state of meditation when I painted it!). I was also studying Universal Laws; that your thoughts go out into the universe and leave an impression. The more you have the same thought, the deeper the impression becomes. These thoughts are eventually reflected back to you as your life (good or bad).
As a result of learning this, I began to really focus on managing my thoughts, and what I wanted to create (as opposed to what I didn’t want).
I wrote my poem ‘The Black Butterfly Effect’ in 2012 while going through a ‘Mind Fast’. The poem uses the imagery of a caterpillar transforming into a butterfly, to explain the process of transforming your mind:
First, you must protect your subconscious mind from all negative influences that do not support your vision; then you must ‘go within’ and get clear about what you want to create. As you’re going through this process you’ll find it difficult, because your mind and body are used to doing things a different way. But the more you practice your new way of thinking, your mind and body will eventually catch up!
In January I completed The 30 Day Mind Detox in which I ‘cocooned’ myself from the outside world and focused on going within and getting really clear on what I wanted to achieve this year, and the years ahead. Once I was clear, I created a Vision Board based upon my set intentions. Already, things have started to MANifest! I will share more about this later on this year, but for now, if you’d like to start the process of transforming your mind, begin by reading my Self-help novel ‘Journey of a Sister’ (for brothers too!). The main character goes through a complete transformation; of her mind, her relationship, and her Self-identity.
I’ve used the Adinkra symbol ‘Sesa wo Suban’ throughout the book, as it is the symbol of transformation:
Are you ready to Transform?
Join Suzanne on her transformational quest for “The Truth!” about sex before marriage, the creative power of her thoughts, her African ancestry, and the history of the religion she had been indoctrinated into! It includes her hair journey, the transformation of her relationship, and discovering True Love! It is a beautiful Black Love story with lots of wisdom, which thousands of women and men can relate to. Start the journey by reading Year One FREE! (click on the link).
(features my artwork & poetry)
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‘Black Butterfly’ features in Year One and Year Seven!
To view more of my art, and to order your art prints visit my Art Page!
In your service,
Cezanne Taharqa aka Cezanne Poetess
Award-winning Visual & Spoken Word Artist| International Author| Events Host| Workshop Facilitator
If you’re London-based, join us at the next Gida Live! on Friday 17th March (I’m hosting and performing!) for details visit my Events page or click on the image below!
When HeiligGeist DeutschChillcontacted me on my Soundcloud a year ago and asked if I’d collaborate on his prayer-poem ‘Silent Holy Knowing’, I thought “Why not?”
He’d produced the music for it, and wanted me to add the vocals. We communicated mainly by email; he sent me the poem in Word text both in German and in English. I asked him to record himself reciting the poem in German and English so I could get a feel of it, which he did – he didn’t know I would use them on the track! 🙂
I didn’t know him from Adam, and although I hadn’t been to church for years and my belief systems had changed, we didn’t let our different ideas on the concept of ‘God’ get in the way of us creating something beautiful together.
I told him I believed God wasn’t just a ‘He’ or a ‘Him’ (which he used quite a lot in his poem). We debated the topic, but since it was his poem, written from his own belief system (why would a white man want to change his perception of God if it serves him, right?) I agreed to go along with it. I come in about half way through:
This collaboration taught me that it’s possible to connect with anyone around the world in spirit, and not to allow your belief systems to prevent you from working with others with different beliefs to your own.
Another example of this was at a FREE event I attended recently called ‘Meet Your Genius’ held monthly by Ryan Pinnick. We had to pair up with someone we didn’t know, and create a story together; Person A would say one paragraph, ending with “AND…” and Person B would have to pick up where person A left off. I was teamed up with a young English lady, blonde hair, blue eyes. The story we came up with (of a woman who lost her identity) was truly beautiful, and made me realize that no matter where we are in the world, no matter what our background, instrinically, we are all made up of the same stuff.
There was a time when I would stay away from white people (no, seriously!) especially after learning how they treated my ancestors, but my universe is guiding me to be more open-minded.
I’ll always be pro-Black, but am keeping an open mind as to how I work with others on a spiritual level; I believe these two instances are lessons I am learning about the Truth of who we really are as a human race.
In my Self-help novel ‘Journey of a Sister’, the main character expands her consciousness to see every body as souls living in bodies, and realizes that if we don’t work together as a human race, we will self-destruct.
I am fundraising to print the Revised Edition of my novel with my artwork in FULL COLOUR so you can benefit from the COLOUR THERAPY in them! It also includes the SEQUEL (Years 12 & 13) which are not available in e-book format! Pre-order your signed paperback HERE – I look forward to meeting you at one of my Book Signing & Discussion Events where we will discuss the topics raised in my Self-help books! Haven’t started the journey yet? Read Year One FREE! ← (click on the link to open PDF)
For many years, I suffered with depression. I went in and out of dark tunnels, searching for the glimpse of light at the end of each one.
I had constant self-defeating thoughts, hated the way I looked, and felt as if my life was pointless. The birth of my two older ‘suns’ in 1992 and 1995 gave my life more meaning, but I still suffered from bouts of depression. At times, it was so bad that I couldn’t even do simple things like open the curtains, or put the laundry in the washing machine.
Fortunately for me, I was not one to go running to the doctor’s for every little ailment, and when I did finally go, my G.P. housed an alternative homeopathic doctor who prescribed me a remedy called ‘chocolat’!
It did ease the symptoms, but the root cause of my issue was my THOUGHTS. I didn’t know how to control the negative thoughts that were constantly bombarding my mind, causing me to have low self-esteem, to lack self-confidence, and to fail in life.
While I was a stay-at-home mum raising my suns, I put my Self through a series of Self-development programs, worked with Positive Affirmations to ‘re-program my mind’, and read lots of Self-development books. Then in 2006, I was fortunate enough to be able to attend a weekend seminar with Anthony Robbins. I was eager to learn something that would help me deal with my negative thoughts once and for all, and I did. He said “DEPRESSION is just a FANCY NAME for NEGATIVE THINKING PATTERNS”. I had never considered that before. Anthony went on to explain that thoughts are like trains; if you have a thought, another like-thought will come after it, then another, and before you know it, you will have a whole series of thoughts following one after the other. If these are positive thoughts, you’ll remain feeling happy in a state of bliss. But if they are negative thoughts, they can lead to sadness, stress, anxiety, anger and ultimately, depression.
I had a paradigm shift that weekend.
In 2007, I was about to fall asleep one spring evening when the image for my painting ‘Self Love’ flashed into my mind:
It was as if my subconscious mind was telling me I needed to learn how to meditate. Not long after, I was introduced to ‘Inner Space’ in Covent Garden, where I started attending meditation classes. I learned that our thoughts are like seeds, and our mind is the garden. In order to keep the garden of our mind well cultivated, we have to learn how to ‘weed out’ the negative thought-weeds, and replace them with positive thought-seeds. My painting ‘Self Love’ illustrates that by rooting all our thoughts in LOVE, we can remain in a positive state of bliss.
The colours that I intuitively used to paint ‘Self Love’ also healed me from the symptoms of SAD, a form of depression caused by lack of natural sunlight! (see my Art page for more details). I used this painting to illustrate Year Three of my Self-help novel ‘Journey of a Sister’, and also on the front cover of my poetry collection ‘Seeds of Love’.
Here’s an extract from Year Three, which features my poem ‘Fertile Soil’:
Meditate to Create
Suzanne liked the metaphor of the garden; she had learned first-hand from her own back garden how long flowers took to grow, compared to the weeds which sprang up quickly! It was the same with her mind; her job was to cultivate her positive thought-seeds so they could blossom into flowers, by nipping her negative thought-weeds in the bud before they could spring up and stunt the growth of her flowers.
When a negative thought-weed sprung up, instead of watering (dwelling on) it, and letting it grow into more negative thoughts, she began practicing uprooting it and replacing it with a positive thought-seed. So if she had a thought which suggested “I’m not good at that”, she would immediately uproot it and replace it with “I am good at that!”.
Suzanne learnt that all thoughts are either rooted in Love or fear, so she began focusing on planting seeds of Love in the garden of her mind. A positive thought was rooted in Love, and a negative thought was rooted in fear – there was no other place for them to come from. Learning how to meditate helped Suzanne to control her thoughts, which in turn helped her control her feelings.
Thoughts Create Feelings
During a class, Suzanne learned that by focusing on her solar plexus or ‘sun centre’ (located at the back of her stomach) she could instantly tell if she was thinking positively. Good thoughts created good feelings. If she had good feelings, like butterflies, she would be radiating positive energy. If she was feeling bad, she would radiate negative energy. Depending on how she was feeling, she would attract people, situations and opportunities on that same frequency.
Her thoughts were creating her feelings, but her feelings were the fuel which made what she was thinking about, saying, and acting on happen even faster. So her emotions were the real attractor factor!
…She ran a hot bath, adding some sea salt and lavender essential oil. As she relaxed her body and mind in the water, words came floating to her. She reached for her notebook and pen lying on the floor beside the bath. By now, she knew to always be ready for when those bolts of inspiration struck:
I am fertile soil!
When I plant Seeds of Love in the garden of my mind
They’re gonna blossom…
Think of every THOUGHT you have as a SEED
The thoughts you sow, you will reap;
Thoughts rooted in Love will grow into beautiful flowers
While thoughts rooted in fear
will grow into fast-growing weeds!
“Every day is a seed to your future happiness,
success and well-being, so plant the seeds TODAY
for the FUTURE you want to see BLOSSOM!”
Just remember, you reap what you sow…
Acoustic Guitar: Theo Calliste
Needless to say, I no longer suffer from depression!
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We are all on this journey called ‘life’, but we’re not all walking the same path.
Some of us follow a religion, some of us are Truth-seekers, some of us are free-thinkers, and some of us are just wandering through life aimlessly.
Where are you on your journey?
I took the above photo in Finsbury Park, North London, and as I was watching the sun set in a contemplative mood, I was inspired to write those words (my shortest poem ever!)
There was a time when I was striving really hard to make progress in life. The more I strived towards financial freedom, the more I seemed to push it away. At a recent 3-day workshop I attended called ‘Meet Your Genius’, I discovered something new about myself; I had been too focused on making money, instead of my mission, which is to help my people break free from mental slavery, find their purpose, and to live an authentic life, as I am.
Now I am living my life on purpose; I use my natural God-given talents of writing and art to heal my Self and others, and to inspire others to live their life ‘on purpose’ too. I write effortlessly, create at my leisure, and live in the moment. I try not to project my thoughts to the past or future, and enjoy the ‘present’ of life.
‘Life is the journey, not the destination’
Join me on the journey!
Writing my Self-help novel ‘Journey of a Sister’ was initially a way for me to heal my Self; it felt cathartic writing it. Then I realized that it gave others permission to be open and authentic about their own story (the story they have made up about themselves, why they can’t achieve, why they are not in a relationship, why…..), and to begin the process of Self-healing as well. What stories do you tell yourself?
The good thing is, you can always re-write your story, and re-create your Self and your life the way you choose it to be, not the way others tell you it should be. If you need help with this process, start by reading Year One of ‘Journey of a Sister’ FREE!
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Faith, Love & Sex…but the Greatest of these is LOVE!
‘Journey of a Sister’ is the story of a young woman on her 11-year quest for ‘the Truth!’ about sex before marriage, the creative power of her thoughts, her African ancestry, and the his-story of the religion she had been indoctrinated into!
Embark on your own personal journey of Self-discovery, Self-healing, and discovering True Love! This sensational story breaks some unspoken taboos in a thought-provoking yet enlightening way that thousands of women and men can relate to:
“…It spoke to me on SOOOO many levels – it was as though you were writing about my experience at times. The church thing is SOOOO on point!!! While experiencing a range of emotions, I wondered, pondered, shrieked, gasped and almost wept when I came to the end! And please God…any chance of meeting someone like Charles??” ~ Silverlox Fox, London
“…I must confess, this is the first time I will be coming across a work challenging a lot of the childhood indoctrination I grew up with, yet written in a pleasant, indisputable, un-put-down-able, and suspense-filled manner. Talk about intellectually-stimulating and pleasurable rolled into one!” ~ A. Ibiyomi, Nigeria (male)
“I really love this book. I would wait in anticipation to read it every day. The story was beautiful. Anyone who is stepping into their spiritual self, I highly recommend reading this book. You will have a lot of “Ah Ha” moments, relating what you are going through or have experienced along your journey. I know I will read it again” ~ S. Dominique, USA
It’s that time of year again, where the days are shorter, the nights are longer, and we get much less sunlight.
This can lead to a condition called ‘SAD’ (Seasonal Affective Disorder), a form of depression caused by lack of natural sunlight. We get Vitamin D naturally from the sun’s rays, which helps produce seratonin and gives us the ‘feel good’ factor. When we don’t get enough vitamin D, we can feel lethargic, unmotivated, moody, and prone to sleeping a lot. (I call it ‘going into hibernation’)
Many people are mis-diagnosed with depression and prescribed pharmaceutical drugs, when all they need is a good dose of sunlight! I used to suffer from SAD, but discovered a way to heal myself using Color Therapy – ever since I painted my collection ‘Nature’s Art’ and hung them on my walls, I don’t feel ‘SAD’ at all!
Since I’m going to be in cold, grey England for the next couple of months, I keep my painting ‘Self Love’ on the wall at the foot of my bed; it’s the first thing I see in the morning, and the last thing I see at night:
The vibrant colors really do have a positive effect on my mind and emotions, and I’m sure it will work for you too! For more details on how the Colour Therapy used in my paintings can help lift your mood and emotions visit my Art Page.
I used‘Self Love’ to illustrate Year Three of my Self-help novel ‘Journey of a Sister’where she discovers the creative power of her thoughts, and learns how to ‘Meditate to Create’. 8 of my paintings which incorporate Colour Therapy have been used to illustrate the story, so you’ll be healing your Self in more ways than one!
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