The Black Butterfly Effect

My poem ‘The Black Butterfly Effect’ is all about TRANSFORMATION of the MIND: Just as the caterpillar has to go through a transformation to become a butterfly, we too have to go through a process to transform our MIND:

The psychological thriller ‘The Butterfly Effect’ is all about going into the past (childhood) in order to change the present; I realized that my childhood programming wasn’t serving me as an adult, so I began the process of ‘reprogramming my mind’ for success!

Part of my reprogramming involved separating my Self from the world’s way of doing things; I literally ‘cocooned’ my Self from outside influences – no newspapers, 9-5 job, or ‘tell-lie-vision’.

There’s a scripture in the bible which says ‘Do not conform to this world, but BE TRANSFORMED BY THE RENEWING OF YOUR MIND so that you may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect will of God’ (Romans 12:2)

My goal is to be living proof that it is God’s Will for us to live freely and in abundance!

This world system has us trapped in a matrix that means that unless you have money, you suffer.  Is that what life is really all about?  Working to pay bills?  Sounds like a slave system to me!

So the Butterfly Effect is all about transforming your Self from who you are now, to who you wish to become.

‘Coming near to your transformation time, you will find that you begin to eat ravenously, devouring every bit of information that you can get your hands on that will help you to transform your Self from the CATERPILLAR into the BUTTERFLY’

I read countless Self-help books like ‘The Magic of Thinking Big’ by David J. Schwartz, ‘Awaken the Giant Within’ by Anthony Robbins, ‘Feel the Fear and Do it Anyway’ by Susan Jeffers, ‘The Artist’s Way’ by Julia Cameron, ‘Think and Grow Rich’ by Napoleon Hill, ‘The Secret’ by Rhonda Byrne, ‘Conversations with God’ by Neal Donald Walsch, and ‘The Master Key System’ by Charles F. Haanel.

I didn’t just read these books, I devoured them! I did all the exercises set in them, and slowly, began making progress in transforming my mind.

I also attended seminars that would help me change my way of thinking: In 2006 I attended an Anthony Robbins weekend seminar.  Prior to attending this weekend, I used to suffer from frequent bouts of depression, but he said something that made me have a paradigm shift; he said the ‘depression’ is just a fancy word for ‘negative thinking patterns’.  He explained that ‘you can change your state in an instant, just by choosing to think positive thoughts’.  I have to tell you,  I’ve never suffered from depression again! (I found a way to heal my Self through Colour Therapy)

But recently I got to a point where I couldn’t listen to another motivational speaker, read another Self help book, or attend another seminar – I was bloated!  Some may call it ‘fat cat syndrome’ but in this case, it’s just part of ‘The Black Butterfly Effect’

‘When you’ve consumed so much that your body becomes heavy and you’re too bloated to move…’

The ‘shedding of the skin’ process meant I had to lose some friends and family who wanted to keep me trapped in my old body (way of thinking), who didn’t want to accept the fact that I was going through a transformation.  It’s bad enough when your own body is fighting the changes, let alone when it comes from other people as well!

Then I developed a new belief system; “I don’t have to work hard to live abundantly” (in fact, rich people don’t work hard!), “I didn’t have to be poor to be spiritual”, “Money isn’t  the root of all evil”  and “I can make lots of money doing what I love!”

This world is currently based on a slave system; we are conditioned to believe that getting a good education, a good job and being able to pay our bills every month is a ‘successful life’.  The Truth is, most working people are just one paycheck away from poverty.

If you’re not happy with the progress you’ve made in life so far, it’s not too late to change!


Nowadays it’s much easier to ‘reprogram your mind’.  Technology has advanced, and you can now get really cool ‘brain entrainment’ audios that you listen to with headphones just before you fall asleep/wake up, or subliminal videos that you just watch and they go straight into your subconscious mind and do all the work for you!  (Mine has taken longer because I wanted to do the work on my mind myself!)

The process hasn’t been easy; I’ve lost my home a few times, I’ve been broke, I’ve had to send my sons to live with their dads, but through it all, I stayed focused on my goal.  When you’re going through transformation, your mind will fight to stay in its old program!

I now feel as if I’m at the point where my ‘colours are beginning to show’.  I’m almost ready to spread my wings and fly and dance among the flowers………..

Adinkra Symbol for Transformation

Are you ready to Transform?

Above is the Adinkra Symbol for Transformation; I used it throughout my Self-help novel ‘Single, Spiritual…AND Sexual!’ 


My painting ‘Black Butterfly’ was also used to illustrate the front cover of the book!

The main character went through an 11-year transformational journey; join her on her 11-year quest for ‘the Truth’ by reading Year One FREE at







Touching the Heart…through Art!

P.S. Read ‘The Story of My Inner Child’ on pages 32-33 of the latest issue of Conscious Vibes Magazine!

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